Let it out!

[mysticwarrior]

Last month i talked about MDMA with my girlfriend. I told here, that it could probably good for our relationship. She was interested, but because i did mdma in December, i just have to wait a little longer. I am thinking about next month. I really hope she's gonna like it, and that we can have a good conversation.

Again, thanx!

 

[spice]

Yeah the burned neurons and the resulting crossed-eye feeling might be just worth it... who knows

No I'm not a sarcastic person... it's true !

Well... ok now what do you want me to write, no pun intended ? Not every truth is meant to be said ?!

I've never seen spice, I dunno how his neurons or his eyes... is that better ?

Stop thinking I'm a mean guy ! :lol:

Don't hold back, say what you REALLY think......


My neurons work just fine, thank you.....and I stand by my advice.

MDMA in moderation isn't as dangerous as a lot of the stuff I see advocated here all the time.

 

[Forkbender]

I can personally read a whole page and get 80% in about 5 seconds... yall can do the same !

It depends on the content of the page, and whether you want to contemplate, enjoy and/or remember what you read.

I like to fractal-read pages. Read a sentence here and there and construct the thought behind it in milliseconds. It doesn't work on gibberish, though.

 

[Forkbender]

I'm fired up today. Gonna do some good work for the OPEN foundation (see sig).

 

[spice]

From;

http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/mdma/mdma_health1.shtml


"Ricaurte (personal communication,1992) and associates at Johns Hopkins University recently completed the data analysis portion of a primate study which for the first time has identified a no-effect level for MDMA neurotoxicity. The study involved six primates, three controls and three experimental animals who received an oral administration of 2.5 mg/kg of MDMA once every two weeks for four months (8x). Eight brain regions were examined for 5-HT and 5-HIAA content. There were no significant differences between experimental and control animals in any of the brain regions studied. Since a previous study by Ricaurte (1988a) has shown that a single oral dose of 5.0 mg/kg causes neurotoxicity only in the thalamus and hypothalamus, this study demonstrates that the primate no-effect level lies somewhere between 2.5 and 5.0 mg /kg. "


Don't spread fear.

 

[GOD]

If the chinese controled the world they would probably get more pertinent resultes by using GWB type primates and save a few inocent apes lives......

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Family dinner tonight... :?

 

[Guest]

Family dinner tonight... :?

Uhuh, that's a thoughie


Personally, I'm a bit fucked up at the moment, I'm beggining to think that university isn't for me, but I don't know what else to do.

My personal life is fine, I got nice friends, a great gf, I have a passion (that helps *alot*!) and stuff, but I'm totally lost on a professional level.

Actually what I'd like is to be able to start working, earning some cash, and in a job that'll give me an useful formation for latter development.

I don't need much ATM, I just want to be able to live your normal, young guy level of life, which means having enough money to pay for a studio to live in, food a bit more varied than pastas everyday and having a bit of extra money for what I like (going out, music).

But I feel like if I do that, I'll be totally fucked when I'll be like 30, not enough money to support a familly, tedious and uninteresting job, etc...

Basically, I have the feeling that university is like the only way to go (except for a few exceptions) if you want to do ok in your future life (I know it's not true, it's just my actual, irrational feeling toward all this).

Hey, I'm even beggining to feel old (I'm 21) if I compare my age to my situation

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Yay, plain youngster angst :mrgreen:

 

[restin]

What do you study? In which year are you, if you started with 18 you have only 3 years to go for the master...

 

[Guest]

Uhuh, if I was in 3rd year, I wouldn't think of doing something else

I'm in international relationships, in Geneva, 1st year. It's very interesting and I really like the subjects we do, but I just can't commit myself to study for my exams, everytime I start doing it, it's stronger than me, I'll start doing something else, it's like my attention can't stay on this kind of thing.

I have a bit of professional experience, I once worked in a customer relationship company (salesforce.com) and I did great, I think people thought I was efficient and nice, and I had no problem concentrating on my work, that's why I'm beggining to think that starting in a more professional way right now could suit me best.

Plus, it'll give me the independance I'm craving for, I just can't talk to my father anymore as I'm in a *total* disagreement with everything he says and I can't stand even his physical presence anymore, that's why being able to not depend from him anymore would really ease my mind (right now I'm living at my mother's work place, no shower, no kitchen, but that's the closet I get from living on my own).

I know my situation isn't that bad (and me whining can sound ridiculous to some people who are in far worse situation than I do), but when it's your life, things always seems harder :mrgreen:

 

[restin]

hehe okay. In the end it is your thing to decide. But if you are already doubting in the first year, you must really ask yourself, if you can dedicate yourself for it for your whole life. I think that's the problem of (nearly) all students. But the problem you seem to have is not interest but concentration...And then you have to stick to what you want to do and not let yourself distract because there is a high probability that you will regret laziness later on. Train your discipline...I would at least do the Bachelor (except if you really lose interest) and then look further. Good luck, stay strong, walk proud. :wink:

 

[Guest]

Thanks for the support

I have no real intention on quitting right now, it's just that I'm wondering a lot.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

The bad news is that my car has an empty battery...
The good news is that I can't go to the family dinner. :lol:

 

[Ahuaeynjxs]

Hehe, good for you ! :lol:

I didn't mean it generally , I meant for me, because when someone reads me he connects to my stream of thought, and even I try to avoid doing that because of the nature of what I am.

And yes spice, I agree that it wont harm monkeys, but humans brain makeup is much different, try this on a monkey with a neocortex and realise there is MUCH more serotonin potential in there.

Someone might take 150 mg and have no neural damage whatsoever since he used it lots of times before and his synapses are basically used to it, but a new user sporting 150 mg of pure mdma will definately flip and his eyes will go cross sided for sometime, well a normal person at that, a 200 kg giant is another story.

It's not fear dude, I read the independant medical studies trying to disprove the neural damage study, did you ? Sadly they weren't able to suceed, or SWIM would probably be cooking right now.

I mean 5 mg per kilogram ? thats more than 500 mg for me... I'd be unconscious on the floor puking and I'd be depressed for 6 months afterwards, I know my body !

 

[Guest]

Blah... :x Wish I could say it was the first time this happened to Randy Olsen. Anybody up for a massage, not.

 

[Ahuaeynjxs]

Thats another way of saying , we used all the safrole already, SATISFACTION GUARANTEED...

:?

 

[Guest]

Thats another way of saying , we used all the safrole already, SATISFACTION GUARANTEED...
:?

Yes and I got the remaining 10%(sloppy seconds :x ) But thats ok. Was thinking over it in my drunken state last night(sorry about all those posts btw).
I felt very strongly that my spiritual foundation still needed some work, and natural entheogens would be best suited in my case. MDMA could easily been a dead end at this time in my quest, and another issue would have been all the work involved not to mention the risks. One can still get some pills if that becomes a question.

So this can very well be a huge blessing for me, even if it was not the original plan.

 

[Nomada]

My back, hip, knee and ankle flexibility are really really BAD. I can't sit on the floor without it hurting. this makes me very sad. I love the floor, its infinitude, but I can't access it if it's not standing or laying down.

I'd love to trip siting on the ground one day and feel my spine rise like a flower antenna. I wish.

 

[Ahuaeynjxs]

That can be aranged I'm sure...

Theres a 1000 pages of supressed holistic cures on my desk... some that are very sound ; just need to start from the root of the problem, thats easy to identify.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

If you make a habit out of listening to a psychedelic podcast or lecture every day (for example in the morning) you can gradually flex your knees, hips and ankles. It takes about three months, then you too can sit like an Indian, unless there are serious physical limitations. Once you can sit on the ground, you can try to eat some of your meals while sitting on the ground. After a while you'll be able to sit cross-legged for an hour or more. Then you can try to put your left foot on your right thigh, and vice versa. Half a year later you'll be able to sit in the lotus position for 10 or 20 minutes, depending on your determination.

Theres a 1000 pages of supressed holistic cures on my desk... some that are very sound

What do you think of the basic idea behind Regehr Hulda Clark's cures, namely that cancer is caused by ortho-phosphotyrosine, which is excreted by certain stages of the human fluke cycle in human beings polluted with solvents like isopropyl alcohol (as well as heavy metals, PCBs etc.)?