Let it out!

[Forkbender]

I guess you mean Marshall Rosenberg.

Yup. I always mix up first names.

But all that know-how is of very little use if a person is stubbornly clinging to dysfunctional ways of communicating, if a person is addicted to nagging.

Too bad it isn't helping. The only thing that you can change is your own attitude about it. I guess you don't want to continually feel attacked by her, because it is eating you up emotionally. I know it is hard, but you have to stop attaching too much meaning to her harsh words. If they don't make sense, don't take them for the truth. Protect yourself, but don't block it all off. Watch your reaction to what she says and try to judge it from a third person's perspective. Imagine yourself talking to her in the way you think you should handle it and next time do it. It's tough learning, but it will help you live with it.

Pfew, this does feel cathartic. Too bad it doesn't solve anything.

My Qi Gong teacher always says: if you feel pressure from the outside, take it away within yourself. If you are soft, flexible and relaxed, other people's pressure cannot harm you.

 

[Psychoid]

I think I might have been stolen 420$ because I was really stupid. I am going to know wether I was just paranoid or not in the next hours, and feel really bad (that's more than half of what I possess, worth more than 2 weeks of salary )

 

[Twilight]

Damn man, how could that have happened? :shock:

 

[HeartCore]

What are you frustrated about right now?
income

What do you love?
Mostly love

What do you fear?
Mostly fear

What do you hate?
Mostly hate

What are you angry about?
That I still get angry about stuff

Why are you ashamed?
The misdirected potential of our species and the disastrous impact it has on all other species on this planet.

 

[Twilight]

I think my Morning Glory gave me some very good news yesterday. 8)

That looks very much like seed pods instead of young unopened flowers.

 

[st.bot.32]

I had the most fantastic mush experience last week, the mushroom finally started to make sense (funny how acid made sense after 3-4 tries and mushrooms took so many more experiences for me to 'get').. when I got there it was so profoundly clear and rational a headspace, and useful: I spent perhaps a grand total of a minute looking at the visuals, and hours just writing and writing, exploring every thought pattern and every connection, going deep into my psyche. incredibly rejuvenating and healing.

Caduceus, all the best in sorting out the situation you are in. Maybe I'm reading too much between the lines here, but it sounds to me like you've also undergone changes in your belief system since the relationship started, and man, that can REALLY alter the dynamic of a relationship. the relationship becomes a projection of who you were, rather than who you are, and changing it to the present is a slow road..

 

[mysticwarrior]

I had the most fantastic mush experience last week, the mushroom finally started to make sense (funny how acid made sense after 3-4 tries and mushrooms took so many more experiences for me to 'get').. when I got there it was so profoundly clear and rational a headspace, and useful: I spent perhaps a grand total of a minute looking at the visuals, and hours just writing and writing, exploring every thought pattern and every connection, going deep into my psyche. incredibly rejuvenating and healing.

Mushrooms are so mystical


I have bad news

A friend of mine, was brought two month's ago, to a mental institution for the third time in 5 year. He started with psychedelic 6 years ago, but after 2 years when he started using acid, everything went wrong. He slowly started to lose him self and finally ended for the first time in a psychosis and a mental institution. Then a couple of month's later he came home again. He quited his medicines and took acid again. After a while he was in the front of his house and the police was driving there just to check if no one was breaking the law. But my friend was on acid and acted suspicious and runned away and got shot 3 times. He went to hospital and ended in the mental institution for the second time. He did stay there for almost 2 years, also because he needed to rehabilitate. Then last year he came home, everything went fine, till he stopped again with his medicines and took a hit of acid.

Now he already got a psychosis for the third time and still came not out of it. He is not able to fully communicate. Somthing he says are impossible to connect. Last week i spoke him in this mental institution, so i where pretty shocked. I where not really able to talk with him, and you could see in his eyes that he didn't wanted to live anymore :S

All i know, and think that did happen. Is that he in fact got manipulated by a sort of guy who used to call him self a sjaman, i never really spoke to that guy. But a fact is , that he massively give kids of only 15 years old lots of mushrooms and acid, while he is already 50 years old. He causes one accident after the other, and i already spoke to his new victim..

Really i would almost visit his home to kick is arse, but i guess it won't help, does it? :roll:

Sad story, but all true

 

[Forkbender]

Sad story...

Really i would almost visit his home to kick is arse, but i guess it won't help, does it? :roll:

It will give you a little peace of mind in the short run and will make this 'shaman' think (if he is still able to think). It isn't a great solution, but it might help just a little.

 

[mysticwarrior]

Sad story...

Really i would almost visit his home to kick is arse, but i guess it won't help, does it? :roll:

It will give you a little peace of mind in the short run and will make this 'shaman' think (if he is still able to think). It isn't a great solution, but it might help just a little.

Yesterday i spoke with some other friends who also thought about visiting him. Not to kick is arse, but to give him at least a warning and telling him what he is destroying. In the end, this are those cases that causes accidents that destroy it for everyone.

I heard for example that every week he sit in a park where all kids of the age 15 or 20 are gathering, and he brings mushroom tea with him. Everyone who want's can get some. The guy also visit goa party and some other events, and sells everything to anyone who asks. But the fact he gives it to KIDS and teling it is good for them :shock:

 

[Forkbender]

the problem is not so much that the 15 to 20 year olds take mushrooms, it is that they aren't aware of what it will do and don't know how to handle it. They need proper guidance, not some dude who just sells it to them and leaves them on their own.

 

[HeartCore]

Really i would almost visit his home to kick is arse, but i guess it won't help, does it? Rolling Eyes

Major consequences would be at your end because in that case, you will be the one who comitted a crime.

I guess I would warn the guy and if it didn't help, I would rat him out to the cops without the slightest hesitation.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

A friend of mine, was brought two month's ago, to a mental institution for the third time in 5 year. He started with psychedelic 6 years ago, but after 2 years when he started using acid, everything went wrong. He slowly started to lose him self and finally ended for the first time in a psychosis and a mental institution. Then a couple of month's later he came home again. He quited his medicines and took acid again.

That's a recipe for disaster, for sure. Why do you think he's psychotic?
How were his childhood and youth?
How are his brothers and sisters doing?
Can you find out what his birth was like?
What's his 'style' of doing acid? (dosage, frequency, time of day/night, location, intention, philosophical background)

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Caduceus, all the best in sorting out the situation you are in. Maybe I'm reading too much between the lines here, but it sounds to me like you've also undergone changes in your belief system since the relationship started

Definitely, though our worldviews have never been that much at odds, and currently they're even less. After we lost interest in Hinduism, she started reading Fromm, Rumi, Hafiz and a Dutch medium names Josef Roelof, while I started studying astrology, sacred geometry and eventually shamanism. Nowadays I'm into the psychedelic movement in general, and she's mainly enthusiastic about Santo Daime. So there's not much of a gap there.

 

[Brugmansia]

Really i would almost visit his home to kick is arse, but i guess it won't help, does it? :roll:

Actually, it's not new that humans carry false intentions or practise any form of violence (physically or mentally), but you'll always have to watch out that you don't answer this with such an act. Because through any violent act/speech the unintentional impuls itself is passed on to any consciousness identity who has gotten knowledge from it. Whether it is directly seen or indirectly heard doesn't matter, collective awareness doesn't modify itself to getting softer this way. I think that's what true Sjamanism is about apart from the entheogens being involved.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Right now Venus is slowly moving into the sidereal zodiac sign Leo. I've scheduled a trip for next Thursday, the peak of which should occur around noon.

 

[Brugmansia]

Aiming for the time of a fire element I suppose?

Since I began to calculate back I noticed that many of my most life changing trips when during the time of the Taurus. I'm a Capricorn born in the early morning in the beginning of January, so that fits. And I only recently have become aware of some astrology, I must admit I became fascinated by it.

 

[Twilight]

I am so super high right now, wheeee

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Aiming for the time of a fire element I suppose?

No, it's just that my Moon is located around the first degree of Leo, so when Venus enters Leo (tomorrow morning) it approaches a conjunction with my Moon, which will be a pleasant background influence for a trip. Because my ascendant is in Leo, Venus also enters my first house. On Thursday, around noon, the Moon itself will form a trine with my natal Venus, so the Venus energy is reinforced.

I remember last time you took 500 ug transit Moon was conjunct your Venus, during the peak of your experience. Venus is the goddess of love and aesthetic experiences. Venus, along with Jupiter, is one of the strongest benefics in astrology, and both are considered teachers.

I've had three or four psychedelic experiences during Venus transits, and they were all very pleasant.

 

[ararat]

CM, would it be a lot of work to calculate the constelations for me for a certain day? this is getting me interested. where do I start?

 

[Brugmansia]

Care to share it in simplified language that makes me understand it as a ignorant soul in astrology CM? What does my time of intake meant from an astrological point of view? I'm curious.

And does it depend on one's specific zodiac sign whether it is the most educative time to take? Or is it just applying for each one regardless their sign?