Let it out!

[Twilight]

It wasn't really as pleasant as I expected.
Damnit, I'm never gonna take those seeds again. Only pure LSA has another chance for me.
It started out nice but then the nausea set in and it bothered me the whole time.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Yeah, I've got a box full of Morning Glory seeds, but no intention of taking them.

 

[IJesusChrist]

It was like a body naseau too. Just disgusting feeling.

I wonder if serotonin is the best communicator to see reality.

 

[ararat]

it probably is, we wouldn't be "running" on it otherwise.

 

[IJesusChrist]

it probably is, we wouldn't be "running" on it otherwise.

Not necessarily...

Theres alot of things to think about this though, if our neurons were exactly the same, I believe serotonin is damn close to th best, but maybe there are other, better ways of perception...

LSD and Psilo are definitely better at certain things...

Some people are more high on THC than serotonin I'd have to believe - maybe THC is better for some life styles?

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

I also think it's all arranged perfectly. Endogenous serotonine for practical matters, melatonine for sleep, and exogenous natural tryptamines for occasional experiences of expanded perception.

LSD and psilocybine may facilitate heightened awareness, but they keep one awake and without appetite, which will weaken the body. That's why it's so cool that Nature / Earth / Existence / We / God / The Cosmos has arranged it such that we run on serotonine, but can find these mind-expanding drugs throughout nature.

I think it's arranged like that because we wouldn't have wanted it any other way. We desired a life of ordinary consciousness with the option of transcending it. We desired a life of ignorance with the option of experiencing enlightenment.


A verse from the Isopanisad I once memorized springs to mind:

vidyam cavidyam ca yas tad vedobhayam saha
avidyaya mrityum tirtva vidyayamritam asnute

vidyam--knowledge; ca--and; avidyam--nescience; ca--and; yah--a person who; tat--that; veda--knows; ubhayam--both; saha--simultaneously; avidyaya--by culture of nescience; mrityum--repeated death; tirtva--transcending; vidyaya--by culture of knowledge; amrtam--deathlessness; asnute--enjoys.

"A person who gains experience of knowledge and ignorance side by side, transcends the cycle of repeated birth and death, and enjoys the state of immortality."

 

[ararat]

it probably is, we wouldn't be "running" on it otherwise.

Not necessarily...

Theres alot of things to think about this though, if our neurons were exactly the same, I believe serotonin is damn close to th best, but maybe there are other, better ways of perception...

LSD and Psilo are definitely better at certain things...

Some people are more high on THC than serotonin I'd have to believe - maybe THC is better for some life styles?

it's not a "either that or the other" situation, especially with thc.
I wouldn't want to run on lsd or psilocybin. it's fine the way it is, being able to operate properly in this world is something I wouldn't want to miss. forgive me my vagueness, but isn't schizophrenia often compared with constantly running on psychedelics?

 

[IJesusChrist]

Schizophrenia is like being injected with an unknown drug at anytime of the day that can last 4 to 48 hours. It's not until they are in a ward or a "house" that they are "crazy" 24/7.

Nevermind, I take that back. There is a local schizophrenic here that walks the streets - he's been talking to himself everytime I see him so ... yes. Guess what though, he is very intelligent, and manages to get his food, water, and cigarrettes, all while talking to his Gods.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Wow, even our local mailman knows all about mushrooms and mescaline... Amsterdam is such a special place!

 

[Nina_is_alive]

I am a junior in high school with a high "gifted" IQ [which means its over at least 125]

I stay up late every night working on homework

I've been in honors [or higher level than honor] classes myy entire life


and I found out today that I have an unweighted 2.9 GPS [wieghted its more, but...I guess not many people seem to check that/care about it]
I'm getting kicked out of my favorite class [which was also a college credit!]
because I need a 3.0 unwieghted

all this schedule changing and stuff to do and mass amounts of homework make me feel like it's too much
and I can't do it
and like I'm not good enough....I mean who has a 2.9?! I'm smart. I can speak and conceptualize much better than most kids my age. I should not have such a weak GPA.

and yet I'm fearing taht this isall a waste of time, and I'll end up at some community college dispite all I have going for me, dispite how hard I've been working at thiss-
some other kids just go and get fucked up on alcohol and pills every weekend and never touch homework- and-....
I'm feeling like we're going ot end up at the same college anyways or something and I am just feeling so frustrated and done with conventional high school education

and all the stupid classes you have to take, and the stupid regulations you must fit.
and I feel like crawling up under a rock and then moving far far away where such stupid things dont matter.

I just hope I can be good enough "/

I wish I had someone to make it all better for me.

 

[Space-is-the-Place]

IPOD MUST DIE, FUCKING ITUNES MUST DIE AND I HOPE STEVE FUCKING JOBS DIES TOO GOD DAMNIT!!!!! ARGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!

Sorry to read that Nina
The system sucks huh?
Isn't there any teacher that can do something for you?
Someone who really likes you?

 

[Ganesha]

@Space: I understand.

@Nina: Looks like you really like some courses and not others. Can't you drop a few? A tip might be to use your conceptualization skills to understand the things you do not really understand. Once you can free this skill from its normal outlet, you can really flourish.

(acid might help :wink: )

 

[Forkbender]

Guess who's back.

 

[Psyolopher]

Nina, well just be glad you're more intelligent than most.
even though that also sucks, but it eventually will give u more cash.

well as for me:
IS THERE ANYONE WHO DOES NOT HAVE MOODSWINGS?
is the real question, are we aware of it or not?
???
anyone?

I feel weird, and strange and weird again.
Not trippy weird, just like unconfortable weird strange....

I want to feel a flow or a sense ...or a theme in my life.
Mines just, up n down up n down...then to the side...than down again...the OH WAIT UP AGAIN...then down again...then down again...then down again...THEN UP..oh wait we might find a new flow...wait down again.

=/
I just dont know anymore.

I WANT SOMETHING REAL GOD DAMN IT!
IM TIRED OF SUBCONSCIOUSLY CHANGING OPINIONS!

GIVE ME PAIN, GIVE ME PLEASURE, GIVE ME SOMETHING WORTH LIVING FOR DAMN IT!

damn it.

 

[Guest]

Right now I got a beautiful asian girl in my bed, we spent the whole evening kissing each other in a very passionated way (I know she wasn't forcing it), but she won't go any further because she's (or she pretends to be) a lesbian.

Boy, I can't understand women. Not that I'm sex crazed mind you, but I'd just like to know wtf is in her head.

I mean, as a hetero, I wouldn't have sex with another guy, but neither would I let him kiss me tenderly for 3 hours straight.

Aren't those two things usually supposed to go together usually ???

...

...geez, I can't believe I'm posting this on psychonaut.com anyway :' |


Psyo : Moodswings are the way I work, and they can be quite extreme. I'm extremely bi-polar (lunatic?).

 

[st.bot.32]

Hello Forkbender!

IS THERE ANYONE WHO DOES NOT HAVE MOODSWINGS?
is the real question, are we aware of it or not?
???

No, and yes! If you're aware of it you know it's just temporary.. and you can save yourself a lot of grief, I think..

 

[Forkbender]

Boy, I can't understand women.

She's testing to see how far you will go for her. Give it your all even if you don't think she will let you.

 

[Guest]

Boy, I can't understand women.

She's testing to see how far you will go for her. Give it your all even if you don't think she will let you.

Man, how am I supposed to do that, she's sleeping (or pretending to do) and she wraped herself in the bedsheet, gonna be a mess to pull her out of that :evil:

Oh, btw, she's an ex, which makes everything 100x more complicated.

 

[Forkbender]

Well then you know for sure she's not 100% lesbian.

Throw a bucket of ice water over her (pretend the blanket was on fire) and go get a shower together.

 

[Psyolopher]

Forkbender, there is no Fork...only the bender?
oh snap, anyways welcome back...

Right now I got a beautiful asian girl in my bed, we spent the whole evening kissing each other in a very passionated way (I know she wasn't forcing it), but she won't go any further because she's (or she pretends to be) a lesbian.

Boy, I can't understand women. Not that I'm sex crazed mind you, but I'd just like to know wtf is in her head.

I mean, as a hetero, I wouldn't have sex with another guy, but neither would I let him kiss me tenderly for 3 hours straight.

Aren't those two things usually supposed to go together usually ???

...

...geez, I can't believe I'm posting this on psychonaut.com anyway :' |


Psyo : Moodswings are the way I work, and they can be quite extreme. I'm extremely bi-polar (lunatic?).

Maybe she has had bad experience with sex before?
I dont know man, i will never understand women as a whole.
I may understand an individual, but never 100%.

Calm down, i know its hard.
But calm down man....She will respect that. Be kind to her, and show her that you've been there before and that you're willing to take an emotional path with her.

Oh and doesnt the moodswings bother you?
Its like, other thoughts arent valid which are not convinient to this state...weird shit.