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Tunnelvision
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I love all those people uploading awesome piano, guitar and other music instrument tutorials on youtube!
Tunnelvision
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wow heavy story lucien. Please dont blame yourself too much though. You cannot expect these kinds of things when you just give someone a bag of shrooms.
IJesusChrist
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I am so confused about my girlfriend. Whether to keep her or to let her go. I don't know what to do as the year comes to a close she will move bck to her town and I will go to mine (4 hour difference) and I am not much for driving 4 hours... I feel like I should break up with her some days, other days I tell myself this girl is so nice, why would you, this is more for her than for you.
I feel selfish if I break up, because I believe she really likes me (I'm her first boyfriend)
But I feel stuck if I stay.
It is also her birthday on the very last day of school, I can't really imagine breaking up with a girl on her birthday, that would be retarded of me. I am for sure stuck with her for a good portion of my summer. Or should I say gladly still with her... !!
It is a killer. I can see the future both bright and bleak. She would be a great supporter, and .... mother (thats so far off though... dont want to think about it lol) but she is... very hard to connect with deeply. She seems always shy, and awkward around me, yet very very nice... I cannot tell how intelligent she is sometimes, she makes very awkward connections (they really make NO sense but ok)
...enough of that though.
Lucien, I am very sad to hear about your friend, extremely. I worry about that all the time, I thank the universe it hasn't happened yet - ... I wish I could have talked to your friend.
I feel selfish if I break up, because I believe she really likes me (I'm her first boyfriend)
But I feel stuck if I stay.
It is also her birthday on the very last day of school, I can't really imagine breaking up with a girl on her birthday, that would be retarded of me. I am for sure stuck with her for a good portion of my summer. Or should I say gladly still with her... !!
It is a killer. I can see the future both bright and bleak. She would be a great supporter, and .... mother (thats so far off though... dont want to think about it lol) but she is... very hard to connect with deeply. She seems always shy, and awkward around me, yet very very nice... I cannot tell how intelligent she is sometimes, she makes very awkward connections (they really make NO sense but ok)
...enough of that though.
Lucien, I am very sad to hear about your friend, extremely. I worry about that all the time, I thank the universe it hasn't happened yet - ... I wish I could have talked to your friend.
Space-is-the-Place
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IJesus, good luck with your situation.
These are hard decissions to make.
But I think the most important thing is to keep true to what you really want.
Because if you are not happy, she won't be either (in a short time or in the long run, either way, because it will leak through)
Anyway, I wish you the best.
Seriously.... I sometimes have the feeling I SUCK.
I still can get pretty frustrated about the way people act or what people say.
Even if it's things that I should NOT care about one bit.
But it's because it still makes something resonate inside of me.
Things also inside of me that I've gotten conscious of in time,
but apperently haven't completely worked out of my system.
Then I get negative thoughts about them, which come from my frustrations,
but then I feel lousy afterwards about thinking those things.
Especially when it's clear that they experienced something very negative,
which leads to the way they act or what they say.
Or when it's clear my judgement wasn't right.
And then I also get to the point I don't want to judge anybody,
but it still happens.
And I usually get conscious of it pretty fast, sometimes even the split second after the thought.
But still this shallow feeling remains, that I haven't completely incorporated everything I've learned.
Or haven't stopped the endless flow of "dumb thoughts"
I've also got huge concentration problems, not being able to focus on anything.
Reading the forum for 2 sentences and then clicking away to some other site, then playing guitar for 3 minutes and then go play some keyboard and then... etc etc etc
Also I haven't put much effort into finding a job,
wich I'm completely unmotivated for in the first place..
And ofcourse my motivations would have to be:
So I can do fun stuff with my friends and my girlfriend
So I can keep my house
So I can save up to go on a holliday, see other places, which the last time has been 3 years ago
So I can buy a killer acoustic guitar with (close to)exactly the sound I want
and the list goes on
2 days ago I heard I'll have to perform for an audience of about 500 people this friday and I've got the worst case of stagefright you can imagine.
It's keeping my heartrate so high, last 2 days.
Still gonna do it, but I do feel a certain fear to crash and burn.
I thought of Morpheus' saying:"Don't think you are, know you are"
I definitely know that I can play, once I get my nerves under.
But it's really bothering me, since I've already had serious nerves performing for only 30 people.
I do however think that the amount of people is irrelevant in this situation.
It's the nerves, which probably come from uncertainty, that have to go at one point.
je n'est c'est pas
i'm stuck
Funny thing however (yes I've still got my sense of humour so I'll definitely be alright :mrgreen
was that I thought these things were caused by (ab)using Mary everyday, but turns out, this is not the case.
Has been 2,5 months or so since I've started abstaining.
These are hard decissions to make.
But I think the most important thing is to keep true to what you really want.
Because if you are not happy, she won't be either (in a short time or in the long run, either way, because it will leak through)
Anyway, I wish you the best.
Seriously.... I sometimes have the feeling I SUCK.
I still can get pretty frustrated about the way people act or what people say.
Even if it's things that I should NOT care about one bit.
But it's because it still makes something resonate inside of me.
Things also inside of me that I've gotten conscious of in time,
but apperently haven't completely worked out of my system.
Then I get negative thoughts about them, which come from my frustrations,
but then I feel lousy afterwards about thinking those things.
Especially when it's clear that they experienced something very negative,
which leads to the way they act or what they say.
Or when it's clear my judgement wasn't right.
And then I also get to the point I don't want to judge anybody,
but it still happens.
And I usually get conscious of it pretty fast, sometimes even the split second after the thought.
But still this shallow feeling remains, that I haven't completely incorporated everything I've learned.
Or haven't stopped the endless flow of "dumb thoughts"
I've also got huge concentration problems, not being able to focus on anything.
Reading the forum for 2 sentences and then clicking away to some other site, then playing guitar for 3 minutes and then go play some keyboard and then... etc etc etc
Also I haven't put much effort into finding a job,
wich I'm completely unmotivated for in the first place..
And ofcourse my motivations would have to be:
So I can do fun stuff with my friends and my girlfriend
So I can keep my house
So I can save up to go on a holliday, see other places, which the last time has been 3 years ago
So I can buy a killer acoustic guitar with (close to)exactly the sound I want
and the list goes on
2 days ago I heard I'll have to perform for an audience of about 500 people this friday and I've got the worst case of stagefright you can imagine.
It's keeping my heartrate so high, last 2 days.
Still gonna do it, but I do feel a certain fear to crash and burn.
I thought of Morpheus' saying:"Don't think you are, know you are"
I definitely know that I can play, once I get my nerves under.
But it's really bothering me, since I've already had serious nerves performing for only 30 people.
I do however think that the amount of people is irrelevant in this situation.
It's the nerves, which probably come from uncertainty, that have to go at one point.
je n'est c'est pas
i'm stuck
Funny thing however (yes I've still got my sense of humour so I'll definitely be alright :mrgreen
was that I thought these things were caused by (ab)using Mary everyday, but turns out, this is not the case.Has been 2,5 months or so since I've started abstaining.
mysticwarrior
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Wow you are good at explaining what's going inside of your head 
I recognise a lot in your word
Good luck!!! That's what you need, and maybe the concert can be a ground breaking thing, that opens new doors
Greets,
Mystic.
I recognise a lot in your word
Good luck!!! That's what you need, and maybe the concert can be a ground breaking thing, that opens new doors
Greets,
Mystic.
IJesusChrist
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Hahahaha. Y so nervous?
Act as if you are playing for friends, and everyone likes you, no matter what.
Act as if you are playing for friends, and everyone likes you, no matter what.
Did you tell her this? You could explain to her that you love her very much, and that you want to continue being her boyfriend, but that you will not feel like continuing the relationship once you guys separate physically. Tell her a relationship via telephone and email does not appeal to you and that you want to be straightforward about that. Because no matter how romantic one may be, physical proximity does play a major role in relationships. No need to formally or prematurely break up, the moving away from eachother is itself a breaking up. Just be honest to her about your doubts in this regard.IJesusChrist a dit:
There you have it.Space-is-the-Place a dit:Funny thing however (yes I've still got my sense of humour so I'll definitely be alright :mrgreen
Has been 2,5 months or so since I've started abstaining.
Whenever you see 'victims of cannabis addiction' on TV, you can be sure their addictive and dysfunctional behavior was already dormant before they started smoking MJ, and will continue afterwards. I've gone through many periods of non-smoking in my life, and I was just as neglectful of my bookkeeping then as I am today...
Space-is-the-Place
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A looks like I misinterpreted the guys who asked me to play.
It's before the show and much likely I don't have to play in front of 500 people.
But it seems that it'll still be 50 to 100 so a heavy weight have been lifted off my shoulders ^^
Still pretty cool though, I never played in front of that much people so I'll relax and enjoy and hope the people who are there do too
Thanks Mystic and IJesus
It definitely can open new doors, because the organisation does a lot for local bands and artists, so maybe next year queensday
Or some other local event.
Who knows.
I'm pretty new at performing, but I definitely like the idea of doing this more often
It's before the show and much likely I don't have to play in front of 500 people.
But it seems that it'll still be 50 to 100 so a heavy weight have been lifted off my shoulders ^^
Still pretty cool though, I never played in front of that much people so I'll relax and enjoy and hope the people who are there do too
mysticwarrior a dit:Wow you are good at explaining what's going inside of your head
I recognise a lot in your word
Good luck!!! That's what you need, and maybe the concert can be a ground breaking thing, that opens new doors
Thanks Mystic and IJesus
It definitely can open new doors, because the organisation does a lot for local bands and artists, so maybe next year queensday
Or some other local event.
Who knows.
I'm pretty new at performing, but I definitely like the idea of doing this more often
Space-is-the-Place
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Acoustic guitar and voicerestin a dit:
I discovered the acoustic guitar last year january and found out that I could actually sing while playing guitar :mrgreen:
I love it so much that I do it every day
good thing !!
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why is it that I let myself get annoyed by everything so easily these days? gosh, there is absolutely no point in that and I know it, but I get annoyed none the less. is it because of the irregular sleeping patterns? (shift work..) because of the weather? I have no idea.
I don't get why people shift work. it fucks you up, it's not worth the money you get. I'm only shift working for one month, but there are people in there who have been doing it for 25-40 years, and you notice that.
but hey, you don't have to understand everything, and this is why I just decided not to get annoyed anymore and get myself a big jug of oolong tea and a joint now. I wish you all a good day my friends :bear:
I don't get why people shift work. it fucks you up, it's not worth the money you get. I'm only shift working for one month, but there are people in there who have been doing it for 25-40 years, and you notice that.
but hey, you don't have to understand everything, and this is why I just decided not to get annoyed anymore and get myself a big jug of oolong tea and a joint now. I wish you all a good day my friends :bear:
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Yo Space! Where are you buddy?
How was the gig?
How was the gig?
IJesusChrist
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I need some fucking money. Badly.
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I need time! And lots of it!
