after an eagerly anticipated moment there is always something that remains beyond our grasp.
Sometimes when I think I've experienced something akin to enlightenment and then its gone I've suddenly entered a very dangerous place. I want it back, feverishly! But I can't have it back, then I become frustrated, angered, and then I hurt myself again. I have, been blinded by the light. I may have even never ever been light, I just thought there was, and that was enough. And then its all shut off. away into the void of desperation.
You nailed me, druglessdouglas, lol.
Human beings can endure huge amounts of pain, hate, and blindness. But there are few things more complicated and difficult to handle than genuine happiness and so-called enlightenment; it makes you lazy and egocentric. I myself am, agonizingly lazy and egocentric I must admit, just because at some point or another I thought, for one moment, that I had it.
Sometimes when I think I've experienced something akin to enlightenment and then its gone I've suddenly entered a very dangerous place. I want it back, feverishly! But I can't have it back, then I become frustrated, angered, and then I hurt myself again. I have, been blinded by the light. I may have even never ever been light, I just thought there was, and that was enough. And then its all shut off. away into the void of desperation.
You nailed me, druglessdouglas, lol.
Human beings can endure huge amounts of pain, hate, and blindness. But there are few things more complicated and difficult to handle than genuine happiness and so-called enlightenment; it makes you lazy and egocentric. I myself am, agonizingly lazy and egocentric I must admit, just because at some point or another I thought, for one moment, that I had it.