Great to see this thread is still alive
Tomorrow it's six months since this journey and I am planning another one tomorrow. Since April, I had three more which where very interesting.
The past months have been amazing, sometimes short flashes of fear and old anxieties. Some of those flashes, lasted up to a week. It has been a time of integration and moving more and more towards the realization that the goal is to always be here in the here and now (thanks bro
) and not some ultimate state to reach. Six months ago I became a vegetarian, a few weeks after that, I completely changed to a vegan diet. Great thanks to that to my girlfriend who has really embraced vegan cooking and is making amazing meals every day
I have made three more mushroom journeys and a DMT journey since then. All of them felt like returning to 'that' night in April and where deepening that experience. It's impossible to describe just how blissful and completely balanced my body felt on the peak of those journeys, being blessed with a healthy vegan diet and a lot of physical excercise the past six months. I feel physically reborn as well. Most toxins are gone from me and I don't crave for any more (like keep your chemicals
), in the psilocybin journey, the feeling it gave felt like a divine reward for honoring the body as the temple which it is. Really amazing.
It's just amazing to be alive
RymmenOh, and something for you to meditate on, if you so wish: It is not really happiness you are feeling. The emotion is called joy, as it is everlasting and underlying. At least, that's my perception of it.
I know what you mean! To me it is happiness but what's in a word? Besides that, English is not my native language so
The joy/bliss in that trip was like sitting as Buddha in a center of centeredness, looking out of all lives lead and to be lead, in no particular order, seeing 'them' as a projection from out of the center. In there, there is no fear, no worry, worries are preposterous there. It's the place we never move from and everything we 'move to', is an illusion. I felt eternity there, nothing less, nothing more
Love & Peace
HC