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[GOD]

"they dont post with an administrator tag = they manipulate

They own this site, they are the ultimate administrators here. "

Thanks for the honest answer . If anyone didnt understand that its probably necause they dont want to .


The bit about her sleeping with you . You told us you werent together and that shes a long way away . If its not true its slander and illegal . Is it true ? Did you ?

And again you didnt answer questions .

I cant speak for Duglass , but IF what you say is true i think it would be fair and correct that we know why he did it.......... out of his mouth . We dont want anymore manipulations now he cant defend himself do we ?

 

[Mara]

I do not really feel like I've been slandered. I was a bit shocked by Ahua mentioning CM and me in the same sentence. I'm just reading... astonished, laughing, crying at the same time. I have been absent for two months and come back at the moment this forum is in a heavy process, ending in some kind of freaky orgasm.

In my opinion it's impossible to change someone else. You can only change your own views, and you if someone is trying to manipulate you, you yourself have the last say in this. Yelling at Ahua, GOD or Ivar has no use. I don't think we should ban anyone. I hope Douglas will come back.

I think that a lot of people are irritated by Ahua.... because they allow themselves to be irritated. But it isn't bringing us anywhere.

Why not create a seperate forum about the occult? If that will help the people that don't want to read miles of text about stuff they are not interested in... If it isn't going to work, we can always delete it.

:heart: & :idea:

 

[mysticwarrior]

"they dont post with an administrator tag = they manipulate

They own this site, they are the ultimate administrators here. "

Thanks for the honest answer . If anyone didnt understand that its probably necause they dont want to .


The bit about her sleeping with you . You told us you werent together and that shes a long way away . If its not true its slander and illegal . Is it true ? Did you ?

And again you didnt answer questions .

I cant speak for Duglass , but IF what you say is true i think it would be fair and correct that we know why he did it.......... out of his mouth . We dont want anymore manipulations now he cant defend himself do we ?

You also don't answer anything. You did notice, i insult you for flaming and trolling? Ohw, of course you didn't!!! It had a purpose, the purpose to keep everything scientifically. As if you may decide what others can to think and write.

Come on man.....

I cant speak for Duglass , but IF what you say is true i think it would be fair and correct that we know why he did it.......... out of his mouth . We dont want anymore manipulations now he cant defend himself do we ?

If you don't want anymore manipulations, then stop with throwing your hatred emotions on other people. How did you gain all that respect? Yes, you would be a good Catholic.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

The bit about her sleeping with you . You told us you werent together and that shes a long way away . If its not true its slander and illegal . Is it true ? Did you ?

LOL, he said we visited him together in lucid dream space. It has nothing to do with where we sleep.

 

[InnerMysteries]

'telling me to get castrated is well below the belt' (ayuawhatever) Lol that's gotta be the funniest thing in this topic...

This was funny Faust
Thanks for the smile you brought
to my face and for spreading good vibes !

Peace

 

[st.bot.32]

ok, things have definitely exploded here. i really have nothing more to add either. once again i agree with spice's idea, and even mara's idea, another forum, or live and let live (although that didn't seem to work before, that's why this argument started), but in any case the ox have already left the barn and now we would be closing the door

it appears that for some reason the forum is going through some kind of intense filtering process that will lead wherever it will. also, douglass being banned is a bit too much for me, given what happened here yesterday, that seems wrong on every level. he's always been a bastion of sanity and reason, and I'm inclined to respect him a lot more than people who are completely inconsistent. i also have seen enough to understand a bit of god's frustration, and i can't in good conscience not factor that into my equation

so I'm leaving for a while, and the nice thing is I'm doing it with a clear head, without anger, without regret. i need to get away from the internet anyway.

 

[Faust]

Stop looking for any truth in ayaxxx's posts, he's delusional and completely detached from reality.

And GOD doesn't have the manners to be a moderator, it doesn't matter if he actually does any moderating. He represents the site and should act accordingly to it.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

Douglas demanded that I delete his account. If I wouldn't do that, he promised to wreak havoc, and then went about doing just that.

 

[mysticwarrior]

And GOD doesn't have the manners to be a moderator, it doesn't matter if he actually does any moderating. He represents the site and should act accordingly to it.

He has his own private rebel forum..... There he can moderate his own words.

Infact i don't mind if he follows the rules or not. But i don't(infact i do) understand why he blames others for not following the rules, while at the same time he breaks more rules dan ahu ever did.

 

[Guest]

That's it, I'm leaving.

CM, you're either a coward or a manipulator, either way I can't stand people like you.

Lots of members are responsible for this aswell, for not trully showing their disagreement on this matter.

See you in hell.

 

[Guigz]

one more...
It is the slaughter...

 

[mysticwarrior]

I never thought that words could be that powerful.....

 

[Oknayd]

i want to suggest everybody get a grip, get laid, smoke a doobie or just breath calmly and ride this one out... in the meantime under my authority i willl declare this topic dead.. may it rest in pieces

 

[mysticwarrior]

Bleep.........

 

[Brugmansia]

So Ahuaeynjxs, the 'warning' I gave you, in an early state, regarding your spirit/personality where you seem to operate from, wasn't really improper, was it?

Since I wanted to invest in you due to your knowledge, I handed you some little support for an attitude adjustment, and what I got in return was a comment in where you stated that you could have compiled my message, you even heard yourself speaking. Added an holographic theory, typically as a ground to make it look like an invincible power with fundaments.

Followed with an sarcastic laugh like you possessed my mind.

You brought me your spirit, is how I replied. Since your way of operation is anything but a softened view on life. Of course, this does not include self-compassion.

It's not like I hate you, but it hurts me that you proceeded your behaviour while it was obvious that it splits certain members here. Members who have made a community that I love. And it seemed that you could have easily lived with the fact that a certain part of this community would have been demolished, for the set up of your own personality here.

You're intelligent, but particulary not wise. We psychonauts are just very susceptible minds, and it goes totally beyond me that you keep demolishing this community for the born of your own identity here. But it might be explained by certain problems you have, which you admitted in this thread.

The Dalai Lama, even if totally against any use, would be perfectly welcome here as a psychonaut. I'm pretty sure he wouldn't use his knowledge to program intelligent bugs that interrupt with relations here.

You've played your game very well by pulling Fork, CM and others into certain debates where they definitely wouldn't fall into that fast. I have seen replies by them which I never seen before. You do know how to control directions really well, and you're using your anthropological knowledge for bad purposes.

As I said, you never influenced me. But you did it indirectely through your attempts to drive few of my online acquaintances here insane. Which is what I truly reject.

CM seems to hold some doubts, probably Fork also, douglas, Spice, Tiax and Restin got pissed off as this thread went further with your additions.

I do believe that you have the right for communication and I'm tolerant, but the belief in an attitude change doesn't exist anymore with your behaviour throughout this thread.

In all honesty, I'd like to see you leaving. A ban might be an option and the one who does ban shouldn't feel bad for it, a soft personality should learn that idiots do not have the right to benefit from the conscience of a moderator or admin.

 

[GOD]

Money, get away.
Get a good job with good pay and youre okay.
Money, its a gas.
Grab that cash with both hands and make a stash.
New car, caviar, four star daydream,
Think Ill buy me a football team.

Money, get back.
Im all right jack keep your hands off of my stack.
Money, its a hit.
Dont give me that do goody good bullshit.
Im in the high-fidelity first class traveling set
And I think I need a lear jet.

Money, its a crime.
Share it fairly but dont take a slice of my pie.
Money, so they say
Is the root of all evil today.
But if you ask for a raise its no surprise that theyre
Giving none away.

Huhuh! I was in the right!
Yes, absolutely in the right!
I certainly was in the right!
You was definitely in the right. that geezer was cruising for a
Bruising!
Yeah!
Why does anyone do anything?
I dont know, I was really drunk at the time!
I was just telling him, he couldnt get into number 2. he was asking
Why he wasnt coming up on freely, after I was yelling and
Screaming and telling him why he wasnt coming up on freely.
It came as a heavy blow, but we sorted the matter out

 

[TheSearchForSoma]

Brugmansia : I totally agree.

Ahua: You have answerred me yes;But i don't seem to notice any effort from your side. So i also think it's better for you to leave, or be made to.

 

[Ahuaeynjxs]

I'm a little bit more sober about it today...

I realise I let myself be very vulnerable lately and it sent me in some kind of frenzied quest for honesty. I wasn't convinced it was a community when I first began to receive criticism, thanks to CM's post that cleared things a little bit for me about the dynamics of it.

Thus I appreciate it from everyone, and I do not think God is completely crazy about it, as Mara said.

Thanks for your honesty Mara ( I know I repeat myself ) I think the reason CM did not consider much opening a new section is because the lounge and the general psychonautism section was exactly opened for that (lucid dreaming and everything else that dosen't fit) so it seemed more like a move to please people who would not be part of the community and make themselves vulnerable as well. Thats my opinion about it...

I mean if we think about it there are many other forums where they discuss things in a more scientific manner, and where they would ban me on a whim ; like the drug-forums, bluelight... etc...

Why I was so hurt by Douglass and God's post is because I really considered their opinion and they gave me precious advice and encouragements when they heard about how hard my life was in the last year (we set our differences aside many times) ; and I know I'm totally responsible for this, which is why I also exposed to you my darker side (like how I spent most of my last years loving woman in webcam chats, trying to learn how not to be so *words are hard to find here* cynic and ironic.

I bit back, and I think I owe apologies for that, because I didn't take enough time to aprehend and realise that both of you guys were in situations as hard as me, perhaps even worse. But seeing you completely refuse my suggestions to help your respective healths got me in such a state I felt more like I was defending my own life than just my right to express myself.

So please accept my apologies, I didn't mean to attack any of you.

Douglas, your suggestions have been very helpful and I'm looking forward to train the practices you suggested me. GOD, your advice to keep my head up after all that happened truely encouraged me to keep talking and expressing myself for what I truely feel, I'm sorry that it goes against your principles, I truely am.

Some people mentioned I laughed, yes I did at some allusions, but other times I twist on my chair and I feel pain and feel like crying, my own pain for exposing myself thus, noone should feel wrong for me, it is my responsibility.

I never hoped that it would reach this magnitude, I actually care deeply for many of you now, but I cannot control love or where it goes, and it seems it decided to hover around here... at least now it does, we're all subjects to it.

I looked at the people posting their pictures thread last night before going to bed, and I don't know if you realise how many of you look alike, not only in the soul and in passion, but in the body too... I think about CM, Meduzz, Tiax and others...

I hope you will not all really leave, because of me who dosen't even expose myself in pictures because my country (but its deeper than that) dosen't accept people like me and I'd rather not be identified (its my own preference that if I meet you visually, I will be there walking with you). So in that way I should not have so much weight upon your consciousnesses... lets all take a deep breath, I think we should reconsider.

 

[Guigz]

So...it's finish?

Now, we can organize a big goa/trance party with all the psychonaut and after 3 days we all make love together?

No? Ok, i'm already out... :arrow:

 

[GOD]

Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture
Than meets the eye.
Hey hey, my my.

Out of the blue and into the black
You pay for this, but they give you that
And once you're gone, you can't come back
When you're out of the blue and into the black.

The king is gone but he's not forgotten
Is this the story of johnny rotten?
It's better to burn out 'cause rust never sleeps
The king is gone but he's not forgotten.

Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture
Than meets the eye.