The day it started I cycled back from work and I heard a voice from my heart to himself as God told me that DXM if I would take something really would happen. Well, I was wondering what that was so ff drove past the pharmacy and picked up a packet of DARO. That day celebrated my mother's birthday so my grandma came in the evening but not stopped me from still taking the DXM that night. Once the balls carefully fijngemaald and back into the capsule to have done, I took them and went to my grandmother for a moment before talking to her I would shut me in my room. My grandmother was so I could stay the next day still talk to her. The DXM trip is never started. Instead I got a very realistic feeling over me and suddenly I found I could communicate telepathically with my grandma! She told telepathically what I experienced "that" called and that everyone could and all that thanks to the DXM now it was finally possible for me to join. Well my parents came to and heard telepathically from my grandmother that she has been to our house had come for me to give part of her soul. This would I "that" much better experience. My father wanted to share my grandmother's soul, and also tried my grandmother's part of her soul to grab. Well my grandmother still managed to share her soul to give me and now it was time for bed so I went to sleep.
During the day I can not really remember what happened, I remember that I thought my grandmother was a shaman and told this to my mother and found it oddly enough a beautiful thought.
That night I sat back with my grandmother to communicate telepathically, and this time was about death, they would have learned what the afterlife would be. My dad walked in and I looked at him, and suddenly turned to the devil! Complete with horns, a tail and a trident. I had learned that from you "that" some people could run and I thought my dad wanted me to drive. Here I was so afraid that I have become through the house fled, but not what to have taken LSD, because I thought that I would protect my father tried to control me. Of LSD that I noticed some little way, the colors were brighter, but that was in it too. Well, I fled to my sister and I found a strange story, but she had stopped me that night in her sleep.
The next day, all my sisters to the sister I had stayed and who wanted to know why I let my parents had fled. I told all strange things, and they already had that something was very wrong.
Well, this was also the beginning is all a bit hazy for me but it will still try as best as possible to tell.
The day after that I stayed with the father of my niece, my sister's ex where I stayed the first night and he was my ticket to heaven. " I just went on with delivering mail, what my job was then but got now all strange ideas like that with the post very good things could 'seal', which means you can capture what happens in the future, and I would have supernatural powers as I was extremely well against the cold. I had my coat over the garbage thrown in too (please note this was during winter 2009/2010 on one of the coldest days). I still used a lot of LSD because I thought that I protected. The headquarters of the TNT where I got my post would ensure that I landed in heaven, and my father wanted me in hell.
Yet I had to look back to my parents, and one week after it happened anyway. I had to protect from my dad a bit taken LSD, I really noticed from almost nothing, but this would be the big day that my soul of my father and won my ticket to heaven "would get. My ticket to heaven because "That I that is itself terugpak" (My soul is called 'that's that', then there was also 'this is', and 'that's that' but they were for girls and gay men). Well, there I was telepathically told me when I was with my parents all my drug use had to confess that I was so happy with LSD in their sitting on the couch and I did. I was brought to the doctor, and I did achieve them like I'm completely off the map was the LSD, say a kind of extremely drunk. My father still believes that I not acted but that it was real.
At one time it was old and new, I went with a friend to a few other buddies, there was a fact to me and I strung a mechanism that would ensure that after a while "that" no could see. He also told me that I would end up in the asylum, what else was true even though at that time I did not realize I into psychosis Sat I was convinced that everything I experienced was real. It all seemed more real than normal reality.
Well, a few days later my parents had known that something was wrong (I lived with my parents back then) and as a precaution they had all the doors that led outside locked and kept the keys with him. I thought then that my father is still the devil, and that my mother was driven by him, so I thought they wanted to do something to me so I jumped out my bedroom window from the first floor and broke down so my heel.
I was in the hospital and there had been talks with a psychiatrist who wanted me to include anything but my parents did not. So I went back home, but the day I came home again, I so afraid of my father that I was in pajamas and all the neighbors fled, and when my father thought the measure is full and I was still recorded. I found it all quite long as I do not my father, the devil did attend and was thus voluntarily.
Once there I was all "confessed" to friends and acquaintances of mine who piloted those people were also included. To help me. But there were "enemies" in that I wanted to do a bit.
Perhaps it is useful to a more precise picture of what "it" exactly meant. There were several spots on your body, that people could steal from you. I have discovered along the way the psychosis progressed more and more. Thus, your heart (your heart this could be one, and one heart), soul, soul, share your sexual orientation was a plekkie, a proud plekkie, a heaven and a hell plekkie plekkie. You could steal them from each other but there is also such a "death blow", or "blood sense" in it. What this meant I still do not know but it felt uncomfortable. Furthermore, because you could "that" so telepathically communicate with people and other people control you better if she was 'that'.
The "enemies" tried to place more and choose to steal from me and the 'good guys' were then choose that spot back to me. It could have major consequences to that place because if you choose to steal some electoral area lost did you come in hell. Or they changed my "that" heart eg in a 'this' heart, so my voice is suddenly very different sound went. Well it went on for a while, I tried "that" more and better learning to see so I could join but could not so we had the 'good guys' always for me it all cleaned up. Exactly what's happened in this period I can not remember, I remember that at one point I thought I had to save the world but it did me and I would commit suicide, so I could still the world rescue. This I did not have so fortunately no action.
At some point someone told me that heaven and hell do not exist, but it's all been reincarnated. I was very relieved to hear this because the thought that there was a hell, and I'd sit there forever would have made me more scared than ever. I was around that time of the closed ward to the open division, but during the tour told the nurse to me telepathically that I had the soul of Hitler, on the locked ward were all people with souls of Jews and all people in the open division with souls of Nazis. She let me have the 'shower' see ... if you know what I mean
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I had to come back to the locked ward and thought everyone wanted to punish me because I am the soul of Hitler but it was very bad. I could shoot myself through the head. When I went to bed that night I felt the soul of Hitler himself had attached to me. I did while I was half asleep, even a kind of Nazi salute, oblivious. I remembered then that I for once psychosis had been stoned in the mirror and there was a Hitler mustache appeared to me so I figured it must be right. I also thought that if I walked past everyone saw Hitler in person so come back then mostly locked myself in my room. To me during a holiday with my parents somewhere going to drink and the waitress I telepathically told that my purpose on earth was to Hitler for a special plekkie to the afterlife guide and I actually the opposite of him and that's why my previous had chosen. I felt as a kind of crust and was very happy again.
Psychosis, meanwhile, still in intensity, which I devoted to this mechanism that the friend had built in me but it could also be that the medication I swallowed one month already. I found it really cunt because I liked it wonderful world. Especially since I thought it was real. Almost at the end of the psychosis and I was coughing very hard, I had smoked my lungs through it. Then came a sort of special power that many choose to place me took away, took a long (which was also very dirty, as if my lungs suddenly volstroomde with blood) and my voice in a very high squeaky voice changed. I take my voice is still so true, though others say that it is not changed, and now I do not mind.
The soul of Hitler had someone who was relieved finally taken over (he was so relieved not reincarnated, so if he had the soul of Hitler took over after the death of at least no longer suffer him) and I got his soul. I had finally become a sort of angel forever on earth could survive death and reincarnate when I felt like it.
Well, this was my psychosis, happened much more but I do not know anything more and if I have to tell every detail, the story is much longer. That's what happens when your 3 months of the most bizarre experience things. I'm still up about 2 months after that everything was real, and slowly came to understand that it was all my mind was that all this 'invented'. All seems to be a psychosis, according to Jung as symbolic value to have a good thing that's for another topic.
I'm happy now for over one year and have never read more of it even better idea from psychosis have occurred. I am more relaxed or something and is no longer fried in old thought patterns. I'm still recovering, but according to my psychiatrist, I can get back on the same level as I was for the psychosis.
