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[Crimzen]

shipping?

 

[IJesusChrist]

You wanted foot powder, right?

 

[Crimzen]

Yea, i have the worst athletes foot

 

[Crimzen]

lol
so anyways
this is way off the original topic but im continuing with the direction it ended up in...

so i went to my mates party and got drunk
had 1 cone, felt fine, felt real good in fact
by the end of the night it was about 7am and i had another cone (as i was sobering up and feeling seedy having had no sleep)
and i felt that weird anxiety feeling but it wasnt too much to deal with, just enough to make me feel uncomfortable and wish i was at home in bed

i think my sleep has alot to do with it, i have a really fucked sleeping pattern which ive been trying to correct lately

so anyways it was australia day 2 days after the party and i got invited to another party
i decided to go because i havnt seen this group of friends in a long time and felt i owed them my presence
so i went, got drunk, got invited into the laundry for some weed
i had a bucket/gravity bong and was enjoying the company
then this other guy who i only met for the first time at this party came in with a new sort of take on a gravity bong which i hadnt seen b4, i tried it...and within half an hour i found myself in the toilet sweating profusely and vomitting
i terrible shame and felt immature for doing it
but at no point did i feel the anxiety

i think the anxiety and paranoia comes from the people i hang with on top of other variables

conclusion to all of this:
lesson learnt, never again will i smoke more than a single cone of bud whilst drinking
AND
i wont be smoking with certain people anymore

 

[IJesusChrist]

I see.

Good luck- I'm glad it wasn't anxiety. But yeah if you have too much pot while your drunk - puke.

Smoked last night. Felt disconnected for a split second, regained control and went on with the night. Its so grand an experience though, I always feel like I'm watching animals try to mate with each other in weird ways lol. When I'm really high and around alot of people it's like watching a national geographic documentary on the human species. I feel like I can't partake, but it's so incredibly interesting because I'm one of them. I get anxiety from it though, because I really can't communicate that to anyone. "Hey, when I get high I feel like you're all trying to fuck each other like wild animals"

I don't know. I believe that I'm seeing some kind of underlying instinct, the underlying nature under the society veil but I can't be sure - it could be that I'm just high, and have crazy thoughts. Anyways I didn't feel the anxiety, just unrelatable to mankind for a minute.

 

[Schwanke668]

I see.

Good luck- I'm glad it wasn't anxiety. But yeah if you have too much pot while your drunk - puke.

Smoked last night. Felt disconnected for a split second, regained control and went on with the night. Its so grand an experience though, I always feel like I'm watching animals try to mate with each other in weird ways lol. When I'm really high and around alot of people it's like watching a national geographic documentary on the human species. I feel like I can't partake, but it's so incredibly interesting because I'm one of them. I get anxiety from it though, because I really can't communicate that to anyone. "Hey, when I get high I feel like you're all trying to fuck each other like wild animals"

I don't know. I believe that I'm seeing some kind of underlying instinct, the underlying nature under the society veil but I can't be sure - it could be that I'm just high, and have crazy thoughts. Anyways I didn't feel the anxiety, just unrelatable to mankind for a minute.

Depends on who your with I would imagine. Heck I stopped going to one of my church's 'singles' group because it was so obvios how much of a meat market it was. People trying to date other people to get married to fuck. Friend of ours got married and she and her husband had to cut off all ties with her single friends because whenever she hung around them it was like being stared at with these big signs over the other people's heads saying "You guys are having sex and we arent." Made them extremely uncomfortable all the time.

Most of society in its veiled state is about sex. Look at all the commercials on TV lots of them either talk about sex and its problems or trying to sell something using sex. I've seen popcorn comercials try and use sex to sell popcorn lol. Last time I had sex I wasnt exactly holding a popcorn bowl lol.