Advice on where to go from here? Need help

[st.bot.32]

Since I only dog paddle I wouldn't give a shit about what is in the book, as long as it floats.




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But yeah, as the saying more or less goes, 100 books about traveling ain't worth one real trip.

 

[magickmumu]

"From your current ways of talking about the man I'm not even sure if you really know the way he thought and spoke about his own theories."

I`m being ireverant , trying to destroy the blind faith that some people here seem to have...... in the bits that they picked out of some of his work . They seem to me to be ignoreing most of what he said and falling into the trap of having his trips again and not their own . They also seem to me to be taking to small doses sometimes . Thats why i have the T.M. quote under my posts . "If in doubt double the dose" . I have very much of his work , books , films and tapes and have listened / read and seen them all . The theorys about history / life and hyperspace he had were one thing , in my opinion things that should be split from what he said about the art of tripping .

T.M rejected all dogmas..... exept his own , didnt he get bogged down in it towards the end ?. But thats what i`m talking about . To many people think his ALL words were law / fact and dont allow themselves to have their own trips , they try to force themselves into their opinion about the small parts that they have seen from his work and thats why they often have strange trips .

I think he should be respected . But not worshiped and not seen as the be all and end all of psychedelics . We dont want a world full of T.M pseudo clones do we ?

" McKenna himself never resorted to insults, and so he cannot be blamed for the rude behavior of certain fanatic individuals. "

I can think of one time when he was in india sitting with two women tripping that he was in my opinion insulting and snobistic almost to the point of being rasistic . The one where he looks at his feet and trys to ignore the two indians walking in his direction . And no i`m not prepared to listen to all his tapes again to tell you wich one it was . If you know them you will know wich one i mean .

"JohnDoe_2012 we stopped talking about you ages ago and started bickering amongst ourselves."

Maybe thats positive and will give JohnDoe_2012 another perspective . Maybe it will help him to have his own trips and understand the conditioning part of set and setting . To meditate , forget everything and enter the trip as himself and not how he thought he should .

This makes sense. Thank you GOD.
Now I understand your point.
It's sad some people worship Terence Mckenna , because he never wanted to be worshipped.
Personally I like Terence work, but I never worshipped the guy. The only ones I worship at this moment are my girl and Lord Hanuman.
rayer:

 

[lol*fan]

I never read or heard anything by Terence McKenna, but I see his name pop up here and other places regularly, next to Dennis McKenna, Albert Hoffman and Aldous Huxley. At some point in my life I just read a really short article/item about a smartshop in a city magazine. The only thing it said about mushrooms was, shopowner: "It's a magical experience. Everyone should at least try it once in his or her life."

Somehow I immediately recognized this would be the next step in my spiritual development, which seems strange now, since I think I didn't know anything about magic mushrooms and probably had the notion that they would make you go "insane in the membrane" for a while. I was reading a lot of spiritual books at that time, so I might have read about psychedelic mushrooms in one of these. But they usually say It's not the same as reaching other levels of consciousness through meditation because you lose all control and just have to see what happens to you. Better don't do it! The authors of most, if not all, of the books I read this in never took psychedelics themselves. It always makes me a bit sad that these spiritual and open minded people say such things

Anyway, that same day I read parts of Magic mushrooms: our little brothers and some more information and trip reports on the internet. Then I was off to that smartshop and that night I took about 15 grammes--as adviced--of fresh Mexicans, at home--as adviced--, on my own--against all advice. I just knew I was ready for it, just knew this was my next stop. Do you know that little voice inside? Sometimes it's more important than anything anyone says 8)

I can imagine having this image of how a trip is 'supposed' to be can negatively influence your trip or your perception of your trip. I remember after my first trip with egoloss and eternal bliss I wanted to reach that state everytime. Which I didn't for a few trips (even after doubling the dose GOD ), which then was disappointing to me. But I started to see that I was learning the lessons I needed to learn then. Later the trips with egoloss, eternal bliss and feeling like being catapulted outer space came back. These days I don't even need a so called heroic dose to get there. It's all about raising your daily level of awareness (also called base, baseline?) I guess.