For me, it all started when I moved to Montreal. I was interested in studying here, and leave Lebanon for various reasons (including war/politics). One of my few school friends was already here, and we decided to get an apartment together. He was already a frequent marijuana smoker, but me .. boy, that was a different story..I had never really liked alcohol, and never really understood smoking cigarettes ..and it never appealed to me.
Well, eventually, I was curious and wanted to try marijuana and I did... and had alot of fun doing so
Slowly, my tastes started to change..especially music and somewhat movies..I started really appreciating The Beatles, Pink Floyd, The Doors, Velvet Underground( music was never a part of my life before those days!) and the artful directed movies, such as the Kubrick movies! Somehow, I started noticing talent and I guess I was waking up a little bit more every day... from all of the lies and deceits of this world! In other words, I started to think for myself, and not follow blindly what others might say.. a fierce example is Marijuana itself (Everyone who has never tried it is always saying nasty things about it, just because that's what they heard... well that's ignorance if you ask me)
And here's a wonderful quote that is always on my mind:
"If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, infinite. For man has closed himself up, till he sees all things through narrow chinks of his cavern." -Aldous Huxley, The Doors of Perception.
This concludes the first stage of my awakening.. if you want.. the preparation stage.
Now for the second part,
Two, three months later, I am back in Lebanon for Christmas..and me and my friends aren't sure what to do on New Year's Eve. The 31st of December, my friend calls and asks if I wanted to try "acid". The only reference that I had for acid was Jim Morrison's acid trips portrayed in Oliver Stone's movie "The Doors". Somehow, I readily accepted even though I was so clueless about LSD at the time! I guess I really trusted my friend's judgment, and the fact that he was asking me if I wanted to meant he thought I was ready for it.
What a crazy night it was!! The best 12 hours of my entire life..All my senses were just boosted, and sometimes I felt like I might be going crazy, but I enjoyed it to the fullest! The music was amazing, and I remember myself asking "What is this!! This is crazy, it's just unbelievable! What's going on? The music, everything is so beautiful!"(We were listening to Pink Floyd and it just blew my mind away) and then I would remind myself that we had taken acid, and that was the acid doing all this...
Nevertheless, New Year's Eve 2008 was more than a new year for me, it was a new life. The best experience I have ever had so far in my life, and I will never regret to trusting my friend.
Somehow, this experience taught me that the brain is a human's most valuable possession and such a powerful gift. I guess I had really "turned on" that night, and well I am not yet sure if I am "tuned in" .. and when I should "drop out".
So I guess the real answer to "why" I became a psychonaut is Curiosity, the human need of exploration, of expanding knowledge and boundaries. The same way men explored the Earth, or Science, Philosophy, some explore Consciousness and the different states of Consciousness.