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it seems that I can't take psychedelics anymore (or more exactly: shouldn't). I need to get this off my chest.
I have written about it sometimes anyway, I had a tumor 2 years ago or so in the upper part of my spine, near the spinal cord. it was removed with one part of the spine being replaced with titanium. everything went fine, but to ensure that the tumor won't come again, I underwent a proton-radiation therapy in boston.
this therapy somehow harms the cells in this area, so that they won't grow again, at least that's how I understood it. according to the doctor there is a 90% chance that the tumor won't grow again. which is good news.
in one of the consultations, the doctor told me not to smoke cigarettes anymore, because some of his patients did and got paralyzed. fine. I can live without cigarettes, but then I asked him about weed. he rolled his eyes and told me not to take any drug like weed, cocaine, psilo... uuuuhh magic mushrooms, amphetamines etc.
of course it made me skeptical that he put all drugs in one drawer. and alcohol? alcohol is ok.
I asked about the reason behind this, and he explained that the therapy harms the tiniest of the blood vessels, the capillaries, which are here to bring oxygen and other stuff to the cells. and many drugs, such as cocaine or amphetamines constrict the blood vessels. thus, the cells don't get oxygen and whatever they need and die.
in my case the blood vessels are needed for the spinal cord. this would mean, if I started smoking cigs or taking speed, I will be in danger of getting paralyzed.
I then started researching the internet about the effects of thc on blood vessels. I couldn't really find much information, just that thc seems to be beneficial if you have atherosclerosis, or that you can prevent it, whatever. also, I found out that it dilates the blood vessels in the eye (the reason for the red eyes). I tried to find out the effects of speed and nicotine on blood vessels and found tons of information.
this made me even more skeptical and I figuered that it should be ok if I use it with the vaporiser (a friend of mine happens to have a volcano, hardly using it). so I inhaled some weed every now and then. sometimes I used a normal pipe too, a volcano isn't something to carry around, after all.
after some time I noticed that my legs get a bit weak when I had used some weed. one or two times I couldn't even really dance (at a goa party, ate some cookies). as for riding my bike, everything was normal, I could go as fast as I wanted and rode up steep roads with no problems.
also I got really cold hands and feet sometimes. also I had the feeling that my extremities would fall asleep more easily, but that might just have been selective perception. (I stopped using weed 4 weeks ago. it hurt, but I can live without it)
in the meantime I used lsd (once, at the boom, no problems.). before I put the blotter on my tongue, I asked the erowid people if they know about that kind of problem, and the guy told me that lsd increases blood flow to the brain. so he saw no problem. I had one of my funniest trips so far.
then I took mushrooms, at first one or two light doses, no problems, just a lot of fun, interesting thoughts and ideas.
two weeks later I ingested 5 grams. had a strange trip. at the peak I sometimes blacked out, I interpreted this as memory loss or something. I'm still not sure, because after some time I started remembering some stuff.
one or two weeks ago, I tripped again. I used 3 grams. I got extremely tired and my body felt weak, especially my legs. after the trip, my spine hurt quite much, and the day after my right sole of foot prickled.
this made me research about mushrooms. after some time I found out that they have vasoconstrictive attributes, such as lsd, lsa, and assumably mescaline.
some websites stated that they are vasoconstrictive in uterine, placental, and umbilical blood vessels, which wouldn't be a problem for me.
but how can I know if it is any different with other blood vessels? maybe there would be more information if these substances wouldn't be illegal, but well, things went differently.
I'm not sure what to think about this. I have a consultation with the doctor who performed the surgery on me (not the radiation therapy) in january. I'm going to ask him about all this, I think he isn't as ignorant towards drugs as the american one.
I'm going to stay away from taking any of those drugs in the meantime. I fear I will have to stay away from any interesting drug for ever, I don't want to risk getting paralyzed or numb.
I know it doesn't really make sense and isn’t beneficial to ask the “why me
I have written about it sometimes anyway, I had a tumor 2 years ago or so in the upper part of my spine, near the spinal cord. it was removed with one part of the spine being replaced with titanium. everything went fine, but to ensure that the tumor won't come again, I underwent a proton-radiation therapy in boston.
this therapy somehow harms the cells in this area, so that they won't grow again, at least that's how I understood it. according to the doctor there is a 90% chance that the tumor won't grow again. which is good news.
in one of the consultations, the doctor told me not to smoke cigarettes anymore, because some of his patients did and got paralyzed. fine. I can live without cigarettes, but then I asked him about weed. he rolled his eyes and told me not to take any drug like weed, cocaine, psilo... uuuuhh magic mushrooms, amphetamines etc.
of course it made me skeptical that he put all drugs in one drawer. and alcohol? alcohol is ok.
I asked about the reason behind this, and he explained that the therapy harms the tiniest of the blood vessels, the capillaries, which are here to bring oxygen and other stuff to the cells. and many drugs, such as cocaine or amphetamines constrict the blood vessels. thus, the cells don't get oxygen and whatever they need and die.
in my case the blood vessels are needed for the spinal cord. this would mean, if I started smoking cigs or taking speed, I will be in danger of getting paralyzed.
I then started researching the internet about the effects of thc on blood vessels. I couldn't really find much information, just that thc seems to be beneficial if you have atherosclerosis, or that you can prevent it, whatever. also, I found out that it dilates the blood vessels in the eye (the reason for the red eyes). I tried to find out the effects of speed and nicotine on blood vessels and found tons of information.
this made me even more skeptical and I figuered that it should be ok if I use it with the vaporiser (a friend of mine happens to have a volcano, hardly using it). so I inhaled some weed every now and then. sometimes I used a normal pipe too, a volcano isn't something to carry around, after all.
after some time I noticed that my legs get a bit weak when I had used some weed. one or two times I couldn't even really dance (at a goa party, ate some cookies). as for riding my bike, everything was normal, I could go as fast as I wanted and rode up steep roads with no problems.
also I got really cold hands and feet sometimes. also I had the feeling that my extremities would fall asleep more easily, but that might just have been selective perception. (I stopped using weed 4 weeks ago. it hurt, but I can live without it)
in the meantime I used lsd (once, at the boom, no problems.). before I put the blotter on my tongue, I asked the erowid people if they know about that kind of problem, and the guy told me that lsd increases blood flow to the brain. so he saw no problem. I had one of my funniest trips so far.
then I took mushrooms, at first one or two light doses, no problems, just a lot of fun, interesting thoughts and ideas.
two weeks later I ingested 5 grams. had a strange trip. at the peak I sometimes blacked out, I interpreted this as memory loss or something. I'm still not sure, because after some time I started remembering some stuff.
one or two weeks ago, I tripped again. I used 3 grams. I got extremely tired and my body felt weak, especially my legs. after the trip, my spine hurt quite much, and the day after my right sole of foot prickled.
this made me research about mushrooms. after some time I found out that they have vasoconstrictive attributes, such as lsd, lsa, and assumably mescaline.
some websites stated that they are vasoconstrictive in uterine, placental, and umbilical blood vessels, which wouldn't be a problem for me.
but how can I know if it is any different with other blood vessels? maybe there would be more information if these substances wouldn't be illegal, but well, things went differently.
I'm not sure what to think about this. I have a consultation with the doctor who performed the surgery on me (not the radiation therapy) in january. I'm going to ask him about all this, I think he isn't as ignorant towards drugs as the american one.
I'm going to stay away from taking any of those drugs in the meantime. I fear I will have to stay away from any interesting drug for ever, I don't want to risk getting paralyzed or numb.
I know it doesn't really make sense and isn’t beneficial to ask the “why me
