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why do you exclude cigarettes when you say you haven't done drugs? you have, it's called nicotine.
This doesn't really matter to him right now, does he? A fact is that he feels his self terribly fucked up, and he really is screaming for someone to help him. And he is asking for some advice great advice.........:?
tudy a dit:
now i don't use drugs since 2 months and as i told before i don't have anything in my life i lost everything my friends my gf..now i'm on antydepressive presribed by my psihiatric efectin er 150mg and rispolept 4mg.. these symptoms were before i starting taking them...maybe u can give more advices of what should i do or give me an ID coz here in romania drugs specialist don't exist and i'm totally freaked out...i eath healthy i sleep well i' smoke like 2 packets of cigarettes i don't do alcohol and drugs no more for 2 moths and now and i still have these fucking simpotms that became a real trouble...i'm starting to think i'm retarded Sadi don't know how the fuck should i start a new life with these problems
So you already visiting a psychiatrist? I think you need to have a good conversation with this psychiatrist you have. If you don't have a psychiatrist, find one! Your telling that your still a teenager, and this reminded me of times when i was a little younger. I was i think 16 years old, i already had been going to hell of a life, but beside that i started notice some problems when i became 16, and since then i started to develop/notice more and more psychological problems, i was really confused about everything around me. Well i try to keep it short. But as the years did past by, i kept myself strong from falling away. Till that age i really never had used any drugs. To be honest, i was against it. I thought it would make you stupid, so it became easy for governments to make us psychological ill and to do with us whatever they wanted to. But i always had said that if i was going to use a drug. I wanted to use some shrooms. Because i just wanted to know what it was like, to have a hallucination. So when i became 18 years, i took some mushrooms. And since then everything starting to fall down. Really, it was like a storm of shit hitting me right in the face. I became really depressed, my parents and teachers seem to have lied right in my face. Everything seemed to be up side down. i thought that they just wanted to turn me into a zombie.
My perspective of life suddenly started to change from one moment on the other moment. The experience of the shrooms was beside a little panic, not really difficult. I even found it really interesting. But the days and moments of this reality shift that did occur. Some problems started to exist and i finally got depressed. I was really amazingly confused about everything, and i lost my concentration also. I could not get the things done anymore, that where asked from me to do. I visited a psychiatrist, but i did not trusted this guy. I realised that they would probably manipulate and try to make me a zombie. So i finally started to focus my self on psychology books etc. I started slowly to discover a new world, a world which i never had seen before. And it started to manifest right in front of me. Finally after to years i was fully cured, and realised that the mushrooms i ate had opened a door to a lot of psychological problems that did already exist, but i always had ignored them.
What i did, was reading a lot of psychology books and books about spiritual stuff. I try'd to reconstruct a new world view, one wich i could live with in peace. I started to realise a sort of dualisme. Everything has his opposition you know, and i realised that all these problems had to exist. What's above is also below... Finally i came safely back to earth, yeah i do have a concentration disorder, which makes it hard for me to keep my attention on everything that i don't really like. Even if i like it, things still can go wrong. I am working on that i right now, i think it has something to do with my food pattern. But the most important thing of this all, is that you finally come back to reality. Don't be afraid, just let the emotion passing by, but feel them instead of ignoring them. Don't think for a moment, but just feel the pain! Breath deep and feel that it's just a emotion. Actually that`s all there is, just an emotion. Ride it, as if your in a roller-coaster. Accept them for what they are. Don't blame the world, don't blame yourself. All that is happening to you right now, is just there to teach you a lesson. Finally it would make you stronger, really believe me. I've been there. But you really need try focus on what you want in live, this could finally change your thought patterns of life.
MDMA is a psychedelic that squeezes out a lot of your serotonine receptors in your brain. If your not stable and not easily accept emotions, after the trip your life becomes harder. Your feelings become stronger, and if your not good at accepting negative emotions, they are going to start troubeling you. So everything your going through, are problems where just some people go trough. There is nothing that you can do about that. As more as you start to accept your emotion and reality, the more you become in peace with yourself!
You also can try to visit a psychotherapist instead of psychiatrist, or visit both. Or you go and read some good "Self help books" explorer a little spirituality etc. Not to much, because you have to keep your foots on to the ground. Study life in general, and see your self as your really are. Confront your self with the truth, and recognise who your are, with and without your problems! Look in the mirror, and accept whatever you are seeing in the mirror.
My parents always told me a dutch saying "It's never so dark, or it already become light." I am not that good at translating, but it said something like that. And i actually think that's true. There will be a moment when your find yourself back again, trust me on that
Try to get some help and find solutions for yourself! How can you change your perspectives, so it make life a little more pleasant. Compromise and accept whatever comes to you! Try be kind against yourself.
One thing i also need to do, is changing my food pattern, because i have a lack on concentration. So eat healthy, find some hobby's, see some friends, try to enjoy the little things. Maybe you can practice a sport, which can reduce your serotonin and dopamine levels in your brain. But remember you need to do all this at yourself, you need to be strong, keep yourself together and go for it!@
I wish you good luck, and i honestly hope for you that on one day you will become more satisfied about everything thats hard to swallow.
Greets,
Mysticwarrior.
i'm going to get smthg and i end up bringing another thing, anxiety, sometimes fever, i don't talk so much as before, i have moments when i don't know why i'm there etc..
but as i told u before i don't sugest trying this combo .. or maybe try it in lower quantity i snorted it in 5 hours but i don't think it was really 0.5-0.5 much more like 1/2 heartie pill-0.25mdma crystals-0.25cocaine all mixed 2gether and putted in my sniffer..now i don't use drugs since 2 months and as i told before i don't have anything in my life i lost everything my friends my gf..now i'm on antydepressive presribed by my psihiatric efectin er 150mg and rispolept 4mg.. these symptoms were before i starting taking them...maybe u can give more advices of what should i do or give me an ID coz here in romania drugs specialist don't exist and i'm totally freaked out...i eath healthy i sleep well i' smoke like 2 packets of cigarettes i don't do alcohol and drugs no more for 2 moths and now and i still have these fucking simpotms that became a real trouble...i'm starting to think i'm retarded 
