Hey Irbreadslave:yawinkle: Its taken me for ages to log into here because passwords didn't work. This is first post I have seen since its all gone all new fangled here
I am SO sorry to hear what happened to you. It is TERRIBLE to give something like psychedelics and not inform the person about it! That evil shit is what the CIA did, and it caused much distress and even suicides.
MY very first trip was done like that by these hippies. Although on one hand I resent what they did, on the other it was an amazing life-changer,and resolved a lot of toxic shit that had built up in even young me (I was only 15). But I remember that the latter part of the trip I freaked out and everyone went green. Don't remember much after that.
I feel what has happened to you ios that BECAUSE of that terrible abuse, and thus the set and setting being absolutely not right, that you have been left with the effects of that. Ideally then I would suggest you have another Trip--is possible with someone you can trust, who isn't tripping, knows about what you have been through and is there to give you company and support (IF you know anyone get back to me and I will encourage them to watch a video about giving support to someone who is having psychedelic experience)
THIS time you must very much emphasize self-love. You may talk to the substance (do a little ritual) and the Four Corners, and spirits, and tell them what happened and you ask their help to help you heal from that abuse to your body and soul. And in this way you are creating the proper intelligent, and loving context for your opening up. because this is what psychedelic experience is--is your whole being opening up like a flower
Have a flower in the place you trip, and relate to that in this way. I read a very moving account of someone who had psychedelic healing who at part of the trip the flower that was in the room looked wilted and dead, but later when he started feeling all reinvigorated it looked blooming and full of life!
So please pay serious attention to what I am encouraging.
I am SO sorry to hear what happened to you. It is TERRIBLE to give something like psychedelics and not inform the person about it! That evil shit is what the CIA did, and it caused much distress and even suicides.
MY very first trip was done like that by these hippies. Although on one hand I resent what they did, on the other it was an amazing life-changer,and resolved a lot of toxic shit that had built up in even young me (I was only 15). But I remember that the latter part of the trip I freaked out and everyone went green. Don't remember much after that.
I feel what has happened to you ios that BECAUSE of that terrible abuse, and thus the set and setting being absolutely not right, that you have been left with the effects of that. Ideally then I would suggest you have another Trip--is possible with someone you can trust, who isn't tripping, knows about what you have been through and is there to give you company and support (IF you know anyone get back to me and I will encourage them to watch a video about giving support to someone who is having psychedelic experience)
THIS time you must very much emphasize self-love. You may talk to the substance (do a little ritual) and the Four Corners, and spirits, and tell them what happened and you ask their help to help you heal from that abuse to your body and soul. And in this way you are creating the proper intelligent, and loving context for your opening up. because this is what psychedelic experience is--is your whole being opening up like a flower
Have a flower in the place you trip, and relate to that in this way. I read a very moving account of someone who had psychedelic healing who at part of the trip the flower that was in the room looked wilted and dead, but later when he started feeling all reinvigorated it looked blooming and full of life!
So please pay serious attention to what I am encouraging.
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