Can you relate?

[Irbreadslave]

Second post I've put about this..sort of. It has been ten months since my experience with 2ci, and I want to try to explain exactly how I feel to see if anyone relates.


I'm in constant dream state. every day feels like a dream.
Weird attacks where my body feels prickly and numb.
always feel like/think I'm having a stroke.
EXTREME over awareness of self.
Panic at the slightest thing.
Constantly questioning reality..is this just a dream? are we all really here? This really could stem from the fact that right after my 28 hour trip I dove into nothing but sci fi fantasy books. : p
I feel like my trip showed me the future

. I saw the world go away.
Constant...now this is the hardest to explain....cycles..circles..un ending cycles in my brain..st random times of the
Patterns move. I have a map of the world above my bed on the ceiling and it still turns back into the super cartoon version swirl.

No time..what is time? Hire c

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[Irbreadslave]

sorry I didn't finish it. I'm doing this on my phone and it's difficult. anyway.

what is time? how can thirty years from now be real? where is the past? the same things happened then right?

I've been so tempted to check my self into a mental institute because I feel that strongly that I an crazy..but if I was truly crazy would I know? but besides all of these feelings I seem to be functioning well enough. I've gotten a promotion at my job I'm g getting better every day..I just. I can tell that I'm not right in the head.
or is it all in my head? anyway, I wanted to know if anyone could relate to any of this..or if you have a something completely new to add

 

[IJesusChrist]

Yeah man! Yes. Exactly been there. I used to mix up dreams and reality. I would see people and I couldn't remember if I had a dream about them or actually met them before. sometimes I would tell my friends about how great a time it was when we did something, then they would be like, "wait, when was that" and I had to really question myself - wait... was I dreaming that?

Every day used to be a struggle. I couldn't talk to people because my own voice sounded SO loud, and every pitch or break of my voice caused me to think something was wrong with me. Constant stress. Going to bed was like getting ready to die lol

JESUS it was an awful time, but so great now that I think back on it. Makes no sense, I know

The numb and stinging I never had - but stress will manifest in weird, weird ways.

But yes, the dreaming, the thinking you're having a stroke - it is all actually an awakening. It is a true realization of what reality is, but you can't process it correctly without learning an exponential amount of new perceptions! The way we are raised is almost in complete contradiction into how we actually function - and when I took that magic shroom journey for the first time, reality slapped me in the face! BAM! WAKE UP!

I couldn't tell what was real, what was my imagination, if something was wrong with me or if I was making it all up. So here I am - 6 years later, still talking about it.

Its a great time. Even the worst of the worst, the bottom of the abyss is always worth seeing. Can't get REAL until you hit rock bottom I guess

PS if you look at my first hundred posts - you'll see :wink:

 

[ophiuchus]

Weird attacks where my body feels prickly and numb.
always feel like/think I'm having a stroke.

you need to get up and move around more for this to go away. take a walk every so often. coincidentally, some of my best realizations have come to me on walks by myself. odds are your blood pressure/blood sugar is low. simple carbs (anything with flour or sugar) shoot ones blood sugar up super high then drops it like a bowling ball. try to avoid those. they are poison, quite literally...

questioning reality is a good thing. how can one learn of reality if one never asks questions of it?

furthermore, reality is not even really "real" fundamentally, so you don't have to worry about that. what we consider "matter", that is, solid, hard stuff, doesn't even exist. any knowledgeable physicist will tell you this. all that we have discovered are smaller and smaller vibrations. the universe is full, of complex frequencies. we are frequencies, literally. listen to the "silence". do you hear it? :lol: in this sense, reality could be seen as a dream, though it is much more reliable and predictable as such. it is merely a tool for experiencing the self.

beyond that, everything is a cycle. even abstract concepts like emotions. try not to grasp to hard at one state, it is guaranteed to change. that's the beauty of it. one only becomes "stuck" when they think "they're stuck". if one lets go of it for an instance, they are no longer stuck . time will help illuminate this.

in short. i relate :lol:

 

[BrainEater]

well it seems you're somewhat out of balance concerning reality and non-reality. just kidding lol... 8)
maybe you experienced and/or got an insight into a deeper conception of reality and this seemed to distort
your normal conception or so.
and what you mean with weird attacks?? like demonic attacks or what???????? well maybe if that's the case
or anyway .... you probably really need to get a better hold of yourself and your body and not let anyone else than yourself control you and your body, or at least not if it doesn't feel right... common sense right???

hmmm well lol... actually i think the world will end indeed. but probably only "the world as we know it"...
from the symptoms you are describing i would say you just need to chill the fuck out. maybe "try to" focus on the breahting and just breathe slowly and deeply and in the moments when it feels right also try to hold your breath for a while or so.
maybe experiment a little bit with the body feeling and listen to it. do what feels right to YOU.
do you feel like you are thinking too much and can't stop the thoughts??
basically i would say what you now need most is mind and body relaxation and most importantly "real feeling" for your body.
i heard that feeling your own body by yourself is most important, because if you don't feel it yourself, who else
is supposed to do that??

btw i think reality in fact IS a dream so maybe you are also getting a little bit closer to the truth. and whether we are "really" here...
i guess this would be a matter of perspective.

now if that isn't logical to you now, then i don't know what is. :lol: :lol: :lol:

time is sleep.




peace

 

[spice]

I stayed in a similar area for almost 5 years....you'll be alright.


there is a reason we are indoctrinated from age 5 to the 'ways of the world'


because they cant make money off shamans