I forgot to tell, that i also made the psychytrist felt a little bit gulty. I started with ritalin for the following reasons. My dad and little brother where also diagnosed with ADD and ADHD. They did run, just like me to a lot trouble well they really did there best and where optimistic. So because they became desperate, they start taking ritalin. But my dad is already poisoned by paroxatine and Respidal. And know he started ritalin. So started googling and already found out about the danger of ritalin. But i wanted to know what it did, what they wanted to give my brother and father. So that's why i went to the psychiatrist(Also in the hope that maybe, maybe maybe it should work, all the news items could also be bullshit. I wanted just to find out the truth. I where already ones diagnosed with ADD, but suddenly know i had ADHD.
Hmmm, yeaaah alright.... But it was nice woman, she really hadn't a clue. So i got home with a subscription for ritalin. I first had to start with 3 pills a day, and later i maybe could get a little more.
The first day was great. It felt really great! It was like as if it was really working. But after the effects came down from the first pill. I felt terrible, then i took the second and felt great again. So i already thought, hmmmm. This continued for the whole day. The second day, i could hardly notice the effects. And i where already disapointed, but i had promised myself to try it for 3 weeks well i already know what poison it was.
And the end of week 3, my parents called me. They where worried, because i had not been there for 3 weeks. Then i fucking realised well i had tried to be consciouss of it, that because of the ritalin i had became a zombie. I just did sit for 3 weeks behind my computer desk. It felt just as if i had no-time, well in fact i had the whole day and at the end of the day didn't notice this. It was really weird because i really tried to be consciouss about everything the ritalin did. I directly quited when my parents called, and started to think what i would gonna say to the psychiatrist. in fact i where a little angry, that she, how stupid she is. she just wanted to poison my dad and brother because she believed everything she had studied! So after she stapped into my trap, i told here how bad i felt, that she poisoned my familly. And told here, that she should feeling guilty that she give this meds to little children. Afterwards i gave here a name i have already forgotten. Anyway it was a psychiatrist who first believed the ADHD myth and after some own research, found out about a different truth.
Trough the ages i have been diagnosed with a borderline disorder, later they found out that they where wrong. And then they diagnosed me with ADD. Well the description fitted exactly but when ii moved trough another city and had to go to another psychiatrist. There i got diagnosed again!
And now it was ADHD
so I know it are just names and lie's to let people feel sick and make big cash with the farma. But there are certain condition of the mind where people can grow stuck in. And that's what could be called ADD/ADHD, it doesn't really matter, there is a large group of people who do have symptoms that limits them. And can make them feel really bad.
but you are wrong that adhd exists...it doesn't
Now that i think about it, alright we should stop thinking that it exists, else we keep the story alive, with all the intoxicated children as result.
I should even make a message of it. But then i need a good explanation to explain why ADHD, doesn't exist at all.
In the end, i still have a some of these symptoms, but i now enjoy them instead of ridcule them. But since i don't have to work anymore, because another game i played in the past, i have all the time of the day to explorer and experience my life in my own way. And i am quit happy with these symptom's. And can do things in our world, what i think would matter instead of a government decide that for me, and treat me as a slave. Yet, it isn't easy, because lots of people do ridicule me if i am honest to them, what i usually am. But i realise that it are the narrow minded people who do this, so i can accept it now and forgive them 8)
I know now, that a part my problem was that i didn't wanted to sell my soul!