Forkbender
Holofractale de l'hypervérité
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I recently stopped smoking weed/hash regularly (at least 3 days a week for the last year and a half). I decided on January 2nd that enough was enough and that I would only use cannabis once a month. Thus far I haven't used it since. I noticed some things changed for me. I became more productive and was able to do things that needed to be done much better. I also became aware how I misused cannabis, by using it to fill the time in which I had nothing to do or pretended I had nothing to do. I want to use it instead in the way I use entheogens: just once a month tops to journey. I am planning an experience next week (but have to see if I got the time).
Sleeplessness is a big problem. Before I started smoking cannabis, I regularly couldn't fall asleep because of stress and/or running thoughts. The use of cannabis was some form of self-medication, but now that I stopped, I noticed that I don't have running thoughts any more, which is good. I also don't experience stress that much, which is also great. But I do have problems falling asleep and since I have to work at certain times, I am often tired because I could only fall asleep at 2 am. I am at peace with not falling asleep more than I used to, but am getting tired of being tired.
Quiting wasn't hard at all. I noticed I had lots of time now that I could actually read something without me forgetting everything the next day. The moments I craved for a joint were very insightful, as they showed me why and how I used cannabis before. I didn't have problems with people smoking a joint near me, though and I rolled a couple of them for people with 'rolling disabilities' without feeling the urge to light it. Being sober all day is a great experience, too, I must add. I am confident that I can learn to relate to this wonderful plant in a new way and that it will teach me more now that I show more respect.
Sleeplessness is a big problem. Before I started smoking cannabis, I regularly couldn't fall asleep because of stress and/or running thoughts. The use of cannabis was some form of self-medication, but now that I stopped, I noticed that I don't have running thoughts any more, which is good. I also don't experience stress that much, which is also great. But I do have problems falling asleep and since I have to work at certain times, I am often tired because I could only fall asleep at 2 am. I am at peace with not falling asleep more than I used to, but am getting tired of being tired.
Quiting wasn't hard at all. I noticed I had lots of time now that I could actually read something without me forgetting everything the next day. The moments I craved for a joint were very insightful, as they showed me why and how I used cannabis before. I didn't have problems with people smoking a joint near me, though and I rolled a couple of them for people with 'rolling disabilities' without feeling the urge to light it. Being sober all day is a great experience, too, I must add. I am confident that I can learn to relate to this wonderful plant in a new way and that it will teach me more now that I show more respect.