weird trips

[linedivine]

Hey everyone,

Took a magical mushroom trip last night with a very new friend of mine.

The last time I tripped - on lucy - I had a frightening trip. Monsters appeared and I experienced my own death. Once I came out of this terrible time, I was just so glad to be alive (for I truly believed I was dead - and was so confused for a few hours), and considered the trip all-in-all to be a spiritual success.

So, last night I tripped on mushies, thinking it would feel better, more natural, ect.

For the first hour or two I experienced the same frightening sensations as before, and felt so confused and afraid. Was the dose too high? (I split an eighth with my companion, a rather modest dose in my opinon) Perhaps the situation was uncomfortable and reflected onto the trip (my friend has sexual feelings for me and kept making harmless but unwanted advances).

Or
Am I just in a bad place in my life right now? (Yet, I am completely content)


Send me some advice
or words of encouragement
or personal experience
something!

Love You All,
Caroline

 

[buffachino]

Welcome; good to see you’re discovering the wonder of psychedelics

Well, this sounds rather regular to me, the sensation of reluctance, confusion and anxiety are all results of your ego attempting to reassert itself in a completely alien realm of perception. As the trip progresses, ego death is not uncommon at all, even for low dose trips (can I ask what strain of mushrooms?) every one of my experiences, for a lesser extent with the hippyflip, had this element at some point and to varying degrees (based off dose, set & setting and your willingness to delve deeper) this is just a part of the overall experience of transcendence and enlightenment of the spirit one gains from taking mushrooms or related substances. It’s a result of your mind and consciousness splitting apart into the more primordial and natural aspect of your awareness; where you are no longer 'you' but have rejoined, however briefly and coherently (again subjective), the swirling pool of universal experience from which life itself spawns during birth and reunites in death.

Don’t be concerned about this sensation, with time and experience it is easier to manipulate the lucidity of your consciousness so as that you are not fighting against the proverbial current of the trip. The more comfortable you become with this reassembly of your consciousness, the less confusing and debilitating this feeling will be. Remember, it’s all just your material mind attempting to put reference to your disembodied or unleashed inner essence. You become one with the cosmos and all experience within it. This is the ultimate challenge for your earthly senses to come to terms with because of its vast alien nature and infinite integrity.

I hope this has helped a little; I suggest you do further reading into the intricacies of the tryptamine psychedelics and perhaps read some books or at least visit www.erowid.org and do a little research there. It all helps!

Peace.