Okay, you NEED to listen. Volatile solvents are carcinogenic and extremely damaging to your nerve system, circulatory system, kidneys, liver... even your gonads (I know it sounds like a scare tactic, but it's not; toluene IS that bad a mofo).
Being fucked up beyond recognition and seeing pretty light shows is not exploring your mind for insight.
Please turn away from airplane glue, gasoline, keyboard duster, whatever... Please, for your own good and probably for the good of anyone who cares about you.
There are legal, and much safer ways of exploring alternative states of mind. Heck, many illegal ones are safe enough and not that hard to come by (hint: cannabis, shrooms).
I seriously hope you do listen.