about a week ago...my mom caught me smoking( again)...my father got called ....elevating the situation to all out hell for me..my bong was broke and i was promised by my dad the if he suspected my of using marijuana hed turn me in.... damn,,,they dont get it....is what i thought at first , whats wrong with smoking everday... im depressed... a few hours of feeling..somthing close to my self is a good thing right?...my opinions have changed...im in highschool and i dont need to be smoking constantly. when sober, it is hard for me to maintain my grades any way...i have no less regard for the sacred plant than before. but i realized at certain points or your life habitual used is down right dumb...this situation just sucks... its creating a worse problem for me though.... i cant be smokin weed but .. you know you gotta get a buzz when youve been smokink habitually for a year or so.. and when you cut of from green ..and your a teen ..you go for those little self destructing tablets.. commonly called pills...im taking doses of valium to stop thinking about weed and take the edge off...im trying to use them medicinally not recreationally.....but ones intended short term use of an addictive pharmicutical
can drag on...unwantedly.. any advice or thought youd think would be helpful for me now... my intent is to be basically sober during school weeks and smoke in very small moderation(i also vowed not to spend money on weed any more but i will partake if its goin around at a friends house persay...) any one have any similar events in their lives that could shed some light on what my future decisions shold be? all advice appreciated_________pooz
can drag on...unwantedly.. any advice or thought youd think would be helpful for me now... my intent is to be basically sober during school weeks and smoke in very small moderation(i also vowed not to spend money on weed any more but i will partake if its goin around at a friends house persay...) any one have any similar events in their lives that could shed some light on what my future decisions shold be? all advice appreciated_________pooz