The Yogourt of Life

[gauthis]

Hello
First I speak french and I have no dictionnary near to help me tell my story.
I do not trip often on mushrooms. But when I do, it's always a dose that would result in overdose in friends around me. Nobody wants to "follow" me, so I'm often the only one on shrooms.

The first time, the peak I could describe is that there is no more body, the table, the walls, the floor, your legs, your friends, your hands, your thoughts, everything begins to fade, little by little, and to accelerate in "revolution", I don't know exactly how to tell, every cells around begins to vibrate, and there is always more difficulty in differentiating your self and the rest of the whole...
All is White
The body, the table, the walls, the floor, your legs, your friends, your hands, your thoughts, all is white and filled and everywhere at the same time. One by one, you begin to forget one thing, or more, to forget that it is your own. Until there is no more memomy of pasts events, or thoughts. All becomes pure whiteness. Time is gone. It is a concept that cannot be "touched" in that moment. So it seems ETERNAL. I remember a thought (I wrote alot, and have a little voice recorder) : I thought that I was not born yet, like, if I was preparing to be.
Then, a miracle happen, time is remembered, and so this State becomes temporary! Gooood, cause now that more and more thoughts are appearing again, the more you feel your ego again, the first feeling is "I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE!! Please.Please.Please.Neveragain.Neveragain.Neveragain.Neveragain."
And then all is going "the way back", (but trust me, you take something with you when you get back. ooh oui.) You thank everything you see to be where they are and not to move, you are grateful to understand all more clealry and all that philosophical step information that comes with this.
And then with the NeverGoThereAnymore feeling there is another one emerging..
And then you know that you'll go there again.

I saw the Yogourt (I call it the Matrix too) 3 times, and the next time I somehow "blocked" the door, strucked with too much fear. Maybe next time I'll give "her" the oportunity to blow thy door.. like that time:

Once I purged myself all a day long with cacao. It is a MAOI, or something like that. At 7h a.m. I got to work and when I was thirst or at dinner, all I took is orange juice and cacaco drink, until 16h. All the day long I went to the bathroom, and it was very very.. cacaco. My system could'nt even assimilate all of it. Let me tell you I was not feeling strong at all, but kind of hyperactive, (and this is not me).
I took 6g of ps. cub. (here everybody take one, 2 sometimes, never never more.) I always do 4.5g, with lots of orange juice, always. It's my habit.

That trip was too long. I did not prepared the recorder. I remember of it only as feeling, no words could never be associated with it. Cacao = Chaos. now I'm very pleasant and sobre, and I trip extremely rarely. (= When I talk of that trip to my friends (to query more information) they say "Will I die??? Will I die???" "We're all gonna die at sometimes man.."
- Asshole!! Time does not exist! So you're saying to me "Hey, check buddy, you're dying."
Well, I now control my trips, they are all insightfull and not funny and cute and full of faery flowers.
Mushrooms are very weird. Some can do the same dose as me and will never hallucinate. Another one will go straight to hospital. And they never do cacao or orange juice. If you get something from it, it is because you have to experience that thing. It's in your way.

Hope I've not been too boring.

 

[Raoul_Duke]

not too boring, buddy!
i think your essay describes what a shroom trip should be like!
mais peut-être j'irais dans l'hôpital quand je prenerais 6 gammes!?
i'm german but i speak a bit french...

 

[tryptonaut]

Cocoa is very close to a MAOI when taking shrooms. I took some shrooms recently with a cup of strong cocoa (three tablespoons of pure cocoa powder with only half a spoon of sugar). It was about 5g of shrooms and the trip really reminded me much of the one I had with Peganum Harmala, only not that intense...

However, it was intense enough. I experienced three times in a row that I was getting to a point were my mind "closed down" in fear. I was just not ready for the next stage... one time I could see dancing, colorful lights (like multicolored flames) and I was one of the lights when I suddenly realized I was going to die if I stay in this place. If I'd turn into one of those dancing lights completely then my body would have to die. I was glad that the trip was still so much under control that my fear was able to hold me back from becoming one of the lights completely

I would not have expected three teespoons of cocoa powder from the supermarket to have such an effect on shrooms, but they did... it was longer, darker, deeper and kind of more intense. It gave me a "mystic feeling" later on in the trip, I felt some kind of "magic power" (that's the only way I can describe it: "magic") starting to glow inside me and burst out of me. It felt kind of different than what I had had on shrooms alone.

 

[gauthis]

The "magic" feeling is your inner strenght. The whole of Life, with all those "human" creation, is vibrating extremely low, so low that it makes things" heavy. We all live in and with this vibration rate. That inner strenght, the Real Nature, unmodified Energy, is a Sun, full of everything, and with the goal to spasmodically spend it's Energy. With desires, with drugs, with tv and computer, with everything that you Want, it absorbs Energy. More you restrain desires, more you learn to keep your life force, and then insight are more powerful, and that stuff. Life become easier and harder at the same time. My qualification is just: Intense. Or extreme. Mushrooms are taken (by our kinds) to have more violent insights. So more you do this, more you create a spiritual map of "dimensions", Rules of Creation, from which you can evolve and modify yourself. All Rules are here only to be understood. Mushrooms opens more the valves and let the flow of Energy from that Internal Vortex. Goal of life is to unite the 2. It's only one, at the beginning. There's not 2 ways, only one. The other one is the same, but "They" inverted the information. The good became bad. But it's only a matter of Mirror.
Look for Alice in Wonderland. We must learn to look through the Looking-Glass! The Society is reverted. Take it all, and put it aside. It's all beautiful. But now it's chaos. (*lots of work to do.. and it begins inside!)
Your magic feeling Tryptonaut is found everywhere, stagnant inside and outside all that exist. You just asked yourself the good question, at some times, you opened the Gate, and now, it is hard to close it again (close it and Satan's will is satisfied.)
Your magic feeling is becoming more powerful with your struggle against What Parasites You. Restrain material feelings, get paid with Energy. At the End, Bouddhist call this Chikai Bhardo. It is liberation from the game of Life. out of time and space, and of struggle of course. There is a Thousand Way to find this Path, cause there is a Ten Thousand Tricks and traps (with cyclic configuration of returning back if we choose the bad side.) Until we succeed and then get a trap (named love, sub-path jealousy, for instance) and then you heal your karma, you no more loose energy with thoughts of "Who's in her bed" "I would like to force you to love me" (I take the crude feeling, when often lie to our own f*ckinself)
You probably know what I mean, and it is with anything that can be in you. As soon as you say "Ok go. I'm ready to be hit with Intuition" You got a response. You may throw something to the ground, and pour fucking oil everywhere. It's up to you to overcome rage, that impregnate all your cells cause every time you've let it burst, you never controlled it. Two choices, laugh or destroy. Laugh, and then next time you'll do a bigger mistakes. It's as if Life was playing with us. Or Aliens. Be it what you want, without negativity. This Life is a One Big Machine, and we're puppets. Tragic. Must get out of this mess.

Oh, by the way, this One-way Path is the Yogic Path to Illumination. Society associated it with drugs, addiction, overdose, skipping steps (cheating life), everything to make ourself FLEE your magic feeling as soon as it is felt. Cause that feeling will change the World. My neck is very painful, and there's no way to revert it to "oh wow I feel a funny metal pin in my neck" so... I'm gonna leave it here.

anyways that Subject could never be complete. If you got questions I can answer, and by the way, I'm not all knowing, I just tell what is made clear for me. I'm still learning, but now I've just understood how to make fun with the Work. All can be known with Intuition. Just stop thinking in the futur, or with pasts informations. Feel what is now in front of you. And be alert, it comes from within first, from without it's more subtle. Can't begin by the end, or you'll end starting??
Everything is splitted in two. Even what I'm talking about. And some people will hate my text, some other will feel I'm wrong here and there, that they are true and no other, or any any other superiority (or inferiority) feeling. That is the Ego (attached to the body) that lie you that you should stay away from that mystical fog. All is equal, and what is not understood now could possibly disturb where you are now if you learned it now. Overcome what is in front ou you now (like feelings of love and hate), and after, insights of another domain will emerge. Cause doing things in the tought plane of existence do an equal balance in the physical one.) Rise your thoughts, purify the body. Hope some will take this information as another Key to add to their set. Hope I've opened up a little bit more your Seven Gates.