so this is how it went...

[Psychostain]

This was supposed to be a reply to my own topic here http://www.psychonaut.com/index.php...=11&page=viewtopic&t=27493&highlight=&lang=en
i told her shit like "i like pot and shrooms and i want to have them because there's nothing wrong with them" and she was all "anything baby just be mine again".
That was about a year ago. during the past year she has made me swallow my demands and drink them down with bunch of her own demands. she actually did make me go to work, i work at a scrapmetal recycling center now.
the weirdest thing happened this morning. i had a dream that i was checking out one girl at a shop, she looked real nice and happy and i wanted to ask her name. and then she disappeared and i saw my gypgy GF at my right side just looking at me. she didn't seem to have noticed me looking at the girl at all.

here's the weird thing: i was awake and wondering this dream i had, when my gf woke up and told me how she just had a dream where one local gypgy guy was fixing her car, then she kissed, she was her parents being overjoyous over the sight, and then she kissed him, and she wondered "where's psychostain, are we no longer together?"

As she was telling me of this, i was struggling not to smile. i feel like this is the last chapter in the book of me and her and i don't give a shit.

ps. i keep repeating words "gypgy gf" to underline that I'm still with the same woman.

I might not reply for another year, because she sure knows hot to keep me busy, I only had time to post now because she's at scool and i'm on sick leave.

 

[Caduceus Mercurius]

In a relationship you've got to have at least a somewhat similar pattern of drug use. There can, and will always be, variations, but a relationship in which one person does psychedelics and the other does not is never going to work. You will be living in different worlds, not only during the intoxication, but intellectually your interests will be very different as well, your musical taste etc. So if you like drugs and she doesn't, split! Don't try to make her take any, and don't abstain from any desirable states of mind yourself. It's better to be alone than to not be yourself.

 

[Psychostain]

that makes sense. i tried to believe in us and keep the hopes up, but now i feel that she and her family is doomed. they are doomed to feel bad about hate their life of poorness, because they try to live like penniless millionaires. the way they see life as a "get more stuff-competition" sickens me and i just need to get away from it. it hurts me to make her cry but i know that down the line she'd cry even if i stayed. I've loaned her folks like almost 10000e but that made them like me only as long as the money lasted. I'm going to find me a new place and hide. I know that's a silly plan but it must be better then tying to talk sense to her, that didn't work very well the two last times.

 

[magickmumu]

In a relationship you've got to have at least a somewhat similar pattern of drug use. There can, and will always be, variations, but a relationship in which one person does psychedelics and the other does not is never going to work. You will be living in different worlds, not only during the intoxication, but intellectually your interests will be very different as well, your musical taste etc. So if you like drugs and she doesn't, split! Don't try to make her take any, and don't abstain from any desirable states of mind yourself. It's better to be alone than to not be yourself.

Caduceus don't send the guy on a quest for a psychedelic girlfriend. You know how hard they are to find. :wink: :lol:
My GF doesn't do psychedelics, but we have been together for a long time.
This doesn't say anything about Psychostain,s GF of course.

(I am a bit of a liar because my GF does like to smoke weed)

But it's funny you said it never will work.
While we are living proof it can. :idea:

@ Psychostain. Good to hear from you again.
Sounds like you need to get away.
Good luck.

 

[Forkbender]

Just convert them.

 

[Bastiaan]

ofc I don't know any of these people so I can't judge anything
but reading the story kinda makes me wanna :vom: ..
at least that is, if I don't read it in a way where I feel lots of pitty for them..

Just convert them

+1

 

[Pariah]

I've come close to being in similar situations, what worked for me was completely removing myself from the people involved, the way I see it is just avoiding parasitic relationships, nothing to do with them being poor -

Their being worse off doesn't give them an excuse to use you.

It's difficult and painful, but in the long run healthier for you and makes little real difference to them - they're still going to go through life taking advantage of people.

I've spent some time living in rough areas where the people use being nice to try and get what they want out of you, then have absolutely no interest in you (or even turn nasty) when they don't need anything or you can't or won't help them out. The sad thing is that I don't think they even realise they do it, or at the very most just accept it as a "survival strategy."

So, my advice again: cut ties at a short sharp pain now, or be prepared for a life time of misery and servitude (i've seen enough people become *that person* to know you can't be happy carrying on that way).

some good tool / A perfect circle songs about destructive relationships if your interested:
Orestes (APC), ticks and leaches (tool) 3 libras (APC)

 

[Psychostain]

This morning packed week's worth of stuff. Took her car keys, her home keys and left. I know they're looking for me because I witnessed them do it. This is fucking ridiculous: i'm scurrying for a place to hide each time i see a suspicious car or a person.
Ironically this is allso a lot more fun then what my life used to be.

 

[restin]

So basically you left?

What made you stay with her?

 

[Psychostain]

So basically you left?

What made you stay with her?

Yes I did. I'd say it was peer pressure. Some may call what we had love but if i try to look it as if trough someone elses eyes it looks more like addiction, most of the time we both were miserable, bitter and kind of loathing each other.

 

[IJesusChrist]

Change.