Amazing ....
Last night was one journey I won't forget. My girlfriend Maxi and me had invited a good friend over to journey with us but unfortunately he didn't show up. We decided to go on anyway together and spent the day in preparation.
Preparing for a trip is not something that I had done very good in the past. The intent was there but I always felt a bit awkward. Over the past year I've welcomed a different approach in my life where I start more and more to control the set as much as possible, without getting in the way of whatever needs to unfold, resolve or lived through.
This day the preparation was near perfect. We created a lunch with vegetables and went out in the forest for a few hours to have lunch and relax. When we started to feel a bit slow by the amazing weather, we took our bike and went home.
The rest of the afternoon was spent cleaning the living room. Instead of complete darkness, we put a little altar up on our coffee table. One part formed by a Buddha statue which was thoroughly cleaned first. This Buddha is meditating holding a lotus flower in his hands. Out of this lotus flower, a small stream of water flows down into a tiny cascade further down. Under the water, in the flower is a little red, flickering light which we discovered becomes magical under the wings of teonanacatl
. At the bottom of the cascade is a small tile with some coal with burning incense.
The other part of the altar was a small fiberglass tree which my sister gave me for my birthday once. This basically is a small pedestal with a led light in it. On top of it is a bundle of tiny fiberglass strains, hundreds of them, wavering open in the form of a tree (or mushroom). When you turn on the light and it's dark, every strain will be lightening up vaguely and on the end of every strain, there is a little ball of light gently waving.
Maxi spent time decorating the pedestal itself with colored plastic thread. In the mean time, I sat down focused to combine some of our incenses to smudge the room. For that purpose I used three different varieties from the Amazonian rain forest. When I look at these bags, it's like someone just grabbed a handful of plant material from the forest floor and put it in a bag. Because of the great variety of different plants in that mix, you really get a nice flavorful body of 'smell' in the room which will stay there for hours.
Between things, I spend time making some music, playing some music and reading some Rumi. Set and setting where ready, so we both took a long shower after which I went and prepared our tea. Maxi took 8 grams, I took 10 which is my dose of choice when I really want to 'go there'.
We both drank our tea and lay down. No music, just the sound of the water dripping of the lotus flower. As always the thought crossed my mind 'they don't work', but of course they always do and when the first bodily sensations where coming up, I knew this was going to be an intense journey.
For me the journey was filled with deep emotions, living them, feeling them and letting them pass. It felt like being cleaned up inside. The visions and emotions where about dissolving of personality, letting go of cultural boundaries and finding the core of my spark of life. It went as deep as realizing on a core level how Maxi and me are actually part of the same being, both playing a different part of the game. We felt a deep connection, there was a lot of shared space in the journey as in connecting telepathically on an emotional level. At some point Maxi reached out to where I was stuck and mentioned a painful part of my life which caused a letting go of things I was holding on to realizing, this thing was going to be alright also (it's about my kids without going into details).
After that Maxi called out:'we are married, here and now!' This felt amazing and deep and I realized it was true, I've been in relationships before but never in such a deep and rewarding one as this current one. Part of it is because my former girlfriends never really where into journeying while Maxi and me embraced it as a core thing in our live to keep in touch with who we are and keep us awake. So we got married by the mushroom.
The peak was over and we where sitting at our altar together with eyes open. The lights of the fiberglass tree looked amazing, it was like the mushroom itself. It looked magically. The Buddha was sitting quietly looking over his magical flame with an enlightened smile on his face. Maxi moved her hands towards the little lights of the fiberglass tree and started to play with it.
What happened from here is anecdotal as in you would have to have been there to appreciate it fully or it will just be a story told by someone. Maxi was playing with the fiberglass tree and commented that she felt amazing energy tingling from all the fibers. A little later she commented that she was able to feel each unique and individual fiber on her skin. At that point, groups of fibers started to dance, like little things with a mind of their own. They where grabbing Maxi's hand, letting go again and again and again, making different patterns. I looked at Maxi and realized that she was actually doing this with her mind. It was bizarre and profound and we kept looking at the phenomenon for a while. It kept happening for at least thirty minutes.
Besides this, there was a lot of connecting between us and between us and our friends. There where tears, laughter and everything in between basically. For Maxi it was a hard journey physically with a lot of nausea throughout most of the trip. I intent to start doing some extractions soon to see if the (more) pure compounds, cause less strain on her body.
This journey was in a way like entering a new chapter on many levels like in our relationship but also in the way we journey. This time I experienced what a 'good' preparation means for the outcome of a journey. As Space-is-the-place recently messaged: 'the only preparation you need is going into it with grace'.
I guess that's what we are learning to do, going into the experience and all of life, with grace.
The morning after the trip I downloaded the latest podcast from the psychedelic salon where Dahmer speaks about Terence Mckenna's last days. During this period, he said Terence was talking about 'it's all about love!, it's not about all that other stuff, it's about love'. This made perfect sense to me on this perfect day.
Love & peace
HC
Last night was one journey I won't forget. My girlfriend Maxi and me had invited a good friend over to journey with us but unfortunately he didn't show up. We decided to go on anyway together and spent the day in preparation.
Preparing for a trip is not something that I had done very good in the past. The intent was there but I always felt a bit awkward. Over the past year I've welcomed a different approach in my life where I start more and more to control the set as much as possible, without getting in the way of whatever needs to unfold, resolve or lived through.
This day the preparation was near perfect. We created a lunch with vegetables and went out in the forest for a few hours to have lunch and relax. When we started to feel a bit slow by the amazing weather, we took our bike and went home.
The rest of the afternoon was spent cleaning the living room. Instead of complete darkness, we put a little altar up on our coffee table. One part formed by a Buddha statue which was thoroughly cleaned first. This Buddha is meditating holding a lotus flower in his hands. Out of this lotus flower, a small stream of water flows down into a tiny cascade further down. Under the water, in the flower is a little red, flickering light which we discovered becomes magical under the wings of teonanacatl
. At the bottom of the cascade is a small tile with some coal with burning incense.The other part of the altar was a small fiberglass tree which my sister gave me for my birthday once. This basically is a small pedestal with a led light in it. On top of it is a bundle of tiny fiberglass strains, hundreds of them, wavering open in the form of a tree (or mushroom
). When you turn on the light and it's dark, every strain will be lightening up vaguely and on the end of every strain, there is a little ball of light gently waving. Maxi spent time decorating the pedestal itself with colored plastic thread. In the mean time, I sat down focused to combine some of our incenses to smudge the room. For that purpose I used three different varieties from the Amazonian rain forest. When I look at these bags, it's like someone just grabbed a handful of plant material from the forest floor and put it in a bag. Because of the great variety of different plants in that mix, you really get a nice flavorful body of 'smell' in the room which will stay there for hours.
Between things, I spend time making some music, playing some music and reading some Rumi. Set and setting where ready, so we both took a long shower after which I went and prepared our tea. Maxi took 8 grams, I took 10 which is my dose of choice when I really want to 'go there'.
We both drank our tea and lay down. No music, just the sound of the water dripping of the lotus flower. As always the thought crossed my mind 'they don't work', but of course they always do and when the first bodily sensations where coming up, I knew this was going to be an intense journey.
For me the journey was filled with deep emotions, living them, feeling them and letting them pass. It felt like being cleaned up inside. The visions and emotions where about dissolving of personality, letting go of cultural boundaries and finding the core of my spark of life. It went as deep as realizing on a core level how Maxi and me are actually part of the same being, both playing a different part of the game. We felt a deep connection, there was a lot of shared space in the journey as in connecting telepathically on an emotional level. At some point Maxi reached out to where I was stuck and mentioned a painful part of my life which caused a letting go of things I was holding on to realizing, this thing was going to be alright also (it's about my kids without going into details).
After that Maxi called out:'we are married, here and now!' This felt amazing and deep and I realized it was true, I've been in relationships before but never in such a deep and rewarding one as this current one. Part of it is because my former girlfriends never really where into journeying while Maxi and me embraced it as a core thing in our live to keep in touch with who we are and keep us awake. So we got married by the mushroom.
The peak was over and we where sitting at our altar together with eyes open. The lights of the fiberglass tree looked amazing, it was like the mushroom itself. It looked magically. The Buddha was sitting quietly looking over his magical flame with an enlightened smile on his face. Maxi moved her hands towards the little lights of the fiberglass tree and started to play with it.
What happened from here is anecdotal as in you would have to have been there to appreciate it fully or it will just be a story told by someone. Maxi was playing with the fiberglass tree and commented that she felt amazing energy tingling from all the fibers. A little later she commented that she was able to feel each unique and individual fiber on her skin. At that point, groups of fibers started to dance, like little things with a mind of their own. They where grabbing Maxi's hand, letting go again and again and again, making different patterns. I looked at Maxi and realized that she was actually doing this with her mind. It was bizarre and profound and we kept looking at the phenomenon for a while. It kept happening for at least thirty minutes.
Besides this, there was a lot of connecting between us and between us and our friends. There where tears, laughter and everything in between basically. For Maxi it was a hard journey physically with a lot of nausea throughout most of the trip. I intent to start doing some extractions soon to see if the (more) pure compounds, cause less strain on her body.
This journey was in a way like entering a new chapter on many levels like in our relationship but also in the way we journey. This time I experienced what a 'good' preparation means for the outcome of a journey. As Space-is-the-place recently messaged: 'the only preparation you need is going into it with grace'.
I guess that's what we are learning to do, going into the experience and all of life, with grace.
The morning after the trip I downloaded the latest podcast from the psychedelic salon where Dahmer speaks about Terence Mckenna's last days. During this period, he said Terence was talking about 'it's all about love!, it's not about all that other stuff, it's about love'. This made perfect sense to me on this perfect day.
Love & peace
HC
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