Share experiences of inner thoughts.

[Weyoun]

I've been reading a lot of forums in which people describe their inner thoughts (when sober) as a constant flow of ideas/concepts, thought motions in waves of images/memories and experiences.

Some people even describe their inner thoughts as a constant running DVD directors commentary, commenting on everything they do/experience in life, running 24/7.

The thing with me is, most of the day my mind seems very blanc. Often at work and in day to day life I feel as if I'm on autopilot. There is no running dialogue or constant flow of thoughts. Surely from time to time the mind wanders when I think of going home that night to be with my girlfriend or a book I'm reading, but more often than not I seem to be not thinking about anything at all.

I'm wondering if there are others who feel like their mind is empty most of the times rather than constantly flowing with thoughts, and if my situation could be indicative of a personality disorder.

I'd like to note that I don't suffer from depression or emotional problems apart from some occassional work related stress. I just have the feeling my inner thoughts are often much emptier than what I read other people describing.

 

[Twilight]

Do you consider it a problem?

 

[Weyoun]

Do you consider it a problem?

Not at all.
It's just that the way I experience it is different from what I usually read or hear others tell me so I'm wondering if it means anything and if there are others who share my experience.

 

[Affirmatory]

Most people need to chill out. Maybe you are not one of those people. I'm sure if you go to the doctors and get a diagnosis and some drugs you will have racing thoughts in no time!

I think these people with racing thoughts aren't delegating enough of their mental processes to their subconscious. I used to have racing thoughts and I could never sleep and it was unpleasant. My mind is closer to empty now, I function better and it feels better.

 

[IJesusChrist]

Alot of thought isn't always a good thing, it bears down on my energy alot. I'm constantly observing, constantly analyzing and it takes alot out of a person.

Neither are a bad thing - but, if you want to enlighten your thoughts more, and be more "aware" more often, its very easy to do, many books are about this.

Just once in a while say hey "I'm thinking right now." "I'm aware"

Sounds weird, but it will increase your cognitive awareness, try to accept all sounds as seperate, see if you can pick out alot of different entities.

Don't get made if you start running blanck again - it takes a while to become a thinking machine, and I'm not sure you want to be uppity on this.

As for inner thoughts, I was wondering the otherday if it would be possible for me to be m own god, as if I had put myself in a box, and recorded the results. Itsounds alot like something I would do but I must take my leave now gooday.

 

[Ganesha]

There are probably more thoughts than you are aware of.

How do you respond to cannabis?

 

[mysticwarrior]

There are probably more thoughts than you are aware of.

I guess Ganesha is right. And if not, there would be a good explanation for it.

 

[Mescaline]

I recognize this in myself and I used to think something was 'wrong' with me aswell (though I know nothing can be wrong as long as it isn't bothering me ^^) I don't experience it as if I'm on autopilot per se though. From what I've noticed or analyzed about myself is that when I feel at peace, have no worries, so actually when I am just being myself, this is when I experience bareley any thoughts. Though when I'm a bit hyped or have just been quite active for a while, I tend to get this constantly running radio channel in my head, which is for the most part thinking/talking about stuff I want to change or better in my life.

To answer Ganeshas question for myself: what cannabis does to me on this aspect depends on how I feel before i start smoking (although it can change during the high aswell, doesn't happen that often though). So when I'm quite peacefull and quiet beforehand, this gets even more intense, reducing thoughts even more and giving me a strong feeling of contentness with the way things are, just happy to be observing the world as it is passing by.
But when I'm hyped or mentally 'active', and smoke some cannabis, my thoughts start racing like crazy, more than before, thinking about all kinds of things, most of which are as before things that are troubeling me, that I want to change.

I hope you can relate to this ^^, as I've never (succefully) told this to anyone i know. I once tried explaining this to a friend of mine, but he didn't understand in the slightest way what i was really talking about. But then again most of my friends aren't that self-analytic/self-conscious/'aware of what is going on within themselves', as if they are not even aware of the existence of this internal dialogue.. or well maybe they really aren't (sry for being so pessimistic, but i get dissapointed on this subject (self-awareness) by so many people i know, it makes me truly sad sometimes).

Love,
Mescaline

 

[Brugmansia]

The streaming monitor within is as pouring rain draining the container of committed pursuits. It elevates electricity and stimulates one's hormone release resulting in secretion from external orientation and social approach. To keep sufficient head space for processing all the internal triggered dialogues and intricate observations.

Sometimes my schedule gets very narrow because of this and that's when I make the decision to take a trip. Being laid back for too long is not always a perfume of roses.

 

[Weyoun]

Most people need to chill out. Maybe you are not one of those people. I'm sure if you go to the doctors and get a diagnosis and some drugs you will have racing thoughts in no time!

haha I would never dream about medicating something I don't even consider a problem.

Just once in a while say hey "I'm thinking right now." "I'm aware"

Sounds weird, but it will increase your cognitive awareness, try to accept all sounds as seperate, see if you can pick out alot of different entities.

A nice tip Might be interesting to underline consciousness at random time intervals.

How do you respond to cannabis?

Unlike a lot of people that say cannabis always enhances the mood they had before smoking, cannabis always has the same effect on me. It brings me to a good mood (even if my mood was terrible before) and peaks my interests to my hobbies. I like reading and watching documentaries about various topics that interest me (mainly philosphy, astronomy and psychology).

Also I get a lot of inspiration for my webdesigning when high without losing the ability to write innovate scripts

I dont smoke during the week though, to prevent habitforming behaviour.

I recognize this in myself and I used to think something was 'wrong' with me aswell (though I know nothing can be wrong as long as it isn't bothering me ^^) I don't experience it as if I'm on autopilot per se though. From what I've noticed or analyzed about myself is that when I feel at peace, have no worries, so actually when I am just being myself, this is when I experience bareley any thoughts. Though when I'm a bit hyped or have just been quite active for a while, I tend to get this constantly running radio channel in my head, which is for the most part thinking/talking about stuff I want to change or better in my life.

thank you this pretty accurately describes my experience as well. When being alone without much external stimuli it is often pretty quiet unless something specific occupies the mind. I think the autopilot sensation I sometimes get when at work is just a detachment mechanism of my mind to cope better with every day life.

I could even relate to the part you wrote about your friends. It seems like the friends I went to college with never got rid of their adolescent mindset. Bringing up topics worth discussing aren't well recieved.

 

[Affirmatory]

I go into 'autopilot' at work when doing mind numbing jobs. I can spend a whole day thinking about any subject I choose, make plans, decisions, all while working. I go into a trance. I wouldn't be able to handle this kind of work if I couldn't do this.

Just set yourself a mental task to achieve while you are on autopilot.

I know what you mean about people who don't understand/aren't interested in these subjects. You either look like a genius or mad or both to them for speaking about it.