Random euphoric bursts.

[trick]

So im riding a completly substance free train of extacy right now.

This is the second time this has happend last week too, i had a shitty start to my day, then on the way to another members house on the last train, i was overwhelmed with this euphoria :mrgreen:, i was starin out the window like everyone else one minit. the next im trying to make eyecontact with everyone i can and im grinning like a dam fool, just sitting by myself on the train.

And i was just looking at this girls pictures on myspace that i absolutly do NOT like, and all of a sudden, here i am again, alone in my room grinning like a fucking fool! :mrgreen: :ANAL:

Any ideas?! im not complaining but this is interesting.
Could it be a side effect of some neural diesease?

i hope not. but eh, who cares, if it does this to me ill keep it even if its fatal!

i fucking love my life.

 

[IJesusChrist]

called vitamin D.

My aunt has seasonal depression - so she got a sun lamp. If she uses the sun lamp in the summer (along with the sun being out) she's fucking insane. Like bouncy off the walls giggly happy all the time.

Well, its most definitely more than vitamin d, but I'd say it's a good thing, don't worry about it. I just realize that usually when I'm that fucking happy within a week I'll be down lol. Damn you cycles!

 

[Teonanacapilli]

IJC, you're lucky. When I'm up and giddy, I know within the day I'll crash. If the day starts bad it ends good and vice versa, with a bit of room for change with effort or chance events.

I know what you mean, Trick. I think it's vitamin D too, always seems to happen more when the sun is more available (for me anyhow). I gotta get me one of those sun lamps, maybe and LED grow light would substitute :-|

 

[trick]

that would make sence with the ups and downs, becasue on each occasion i had a shitty start to the day, but the second occasion i hadent left the house all day so it couldnt have been vitamin d lol.

but im not complaining one bit.

 

[BrainEater]

vitamin D is formed and possibly stored in the body. anyways... i think, that the joy of living is a great emotion to behold, to be created and to be shared. fortunately, it is easy to create, too. be aware the source of joy is in you and if you'd perpetually, constantly, exclusively be convinced that the source of joy is "out there", life might at times not appear as flowy, natural and abundant as it might have in the past.
if you know who you really are, you probably will agree that the joy of life is one of the most precious "tools" (for creating more love) we all have been given. yet broken tools need to be fixed in order to provide all potential services. so it is with our relation of our minds with our bodies. it probably won't work the way we want it to be, if we have active or passive resistance to what we want to have created/attracted. i think we all go thru the ups and downs and the different periods/shades of that and if we get the random euphoric bursts we're either on a good way up again or finally on the way to remembering who we are or could be, when we would start to be realizing our full potential.
be of joy, as it's time for that... think why being alive doesn't fill you with joy... and then change it... stop being trapped in the illusion of time and really live your life, while being alife, and not after it or so... but also don't be afraid of death. it is natural, just like life is supposed to be...... "memento mori" makes you forget the now more and more and live in the illusory planes of time that are the past and future.... "carpe diem" instead brings you more into the now and therefore into appreciation and finally joy. however either quoted conceptions seem to be elementary to some extent...

hmmm.... can we ever love life enough??? i don't think so, but that also shouldn't make this goal a stagnant objective state of being and therefore not the source of emotions like grief or sorrow. trust your emotions, be honest with yourself and recognize love, light and life as sources of joy and how they are within you, eternally, if you want it to be so.
i hope it does make some sense for you!! :mrgreen:

peace :weedman:

 

[ophiuchus]

So im riding a completly substance free train of extacy right now.

This is the second time this has happend last week too, i had a shitty start to my day, then on the way to another members house on the last train, i was overwhelmed with this euphoria :mrgreen:, i was starin out the window like everyone else one minit. the next im trying to make eyecontact with everyone i can and im grinning like a dam fool, just sitting by myself on the train.


i fucking love my life.

and the punchline: that's what it's all about!

 

[ararat]

I love those moments as well. it's like you are normally in a bubble - a bubble of rolling thoughts, judgments and fights. suddenly the bubble pops - you are yourself again, you aren't identified with your mind anymore. your true nature comes back*, and what else could be the consequence than an euphoric burst



*(not that it left, but you are again aware of it because all the noise has left)

 

[trick]

so it happend again, and im starting to make a connection between it and being in the sun indeed. but ive also realized that this is such a significant point in my life, that, thats the true cause of these feelings. they are indeed genuine. i moved away from my shithole of a town in florida, and started a new life away from all of the unhappyness of where i came from. ive never been in a better mental state than i am now.

the only thing even remotly troubling is the fact that now that everything is going right, and im ready to trip.. but i cant due to lack of tools. while in the past, ive tripped when i probably shouldnt have.

but im not rushing it, everything happens for a reason. when its time to trip. the tools will find ME. i cant wait to see what things i come back to earth with though! ive had some quite productive trips in times that i had no bussness tripping. my life has been full of stress uintill now. this is truly a new experience for me.

did you notice that i tried to logicalize these feelings with mental illness at the beginning of the thread? thats because of the lack of positive feelings ive been having in my life uintill this point. its almsot shoking that i diddnt realize how misreble i truly was. i can offically say im living life now!

everything is just going RIGHT for me right now. im talking to the absolute girl of my dreams. i dont have to hide my use of psychedelics anymore, im soon to have a steady income, and in the near future ill be moving out of my parents house and starting a life of my own. i feel that im on cloud 9 right now. honestly nothing can touch me at this moment in my life. im so glad things are working out how i planned.

i spent 10 months incarcerated, and in that time i planned out the next 5 years or so of my life, and this: the begginning of it all. is going EXACTLY how i planned. and EVEN if the rest goes horribly off coarse, it will still work out perfectly fine for me because of how well things are going right now.

i wish i had some lsd that would be absolutly amazing.

 

[Brugmansia]

Waking up, warm temprature readily sensed, drinking juice, then eating banana's, followed by apples and strawberry's, a nice dark grain slice of bread, good protein and a few decent cups of coffee, goa trance on, I'm going like an ECSTASY ball. I'm too much of an ecstastic individual on simple legal things. Mister Smith believes it slows me down saying such a life has no future, and he's darn right, since I'm living it.

 

[IJesusChrist]

i remember that feeling trick. Don't go to college! It sucks it right outta ya.