It makes me a formidable and fast debater, but a poor listener.
I tend to feel cool in 3 ways. "Look at me", "Feeling relax and in control" "Emotions and feelings are blunt".
To me it's a very poor drug although I enjoyed it for 3 years, did like 0.5 gram good quality cocaine each 2-3 months. Mostly to remain energetic on parties where I was abstaining from Xtc. To restore alertness after 3 AM till 7 AM. Tried other sources as well but most of them were seriously crap. Too much cut material.
But at some point, the stuff wasn't doing anything for me anymore. Possibily because I had gone strongly dedicated into psychedelics. I just felt contracted and nothing more, it was just suppression of senses and that's what could make me running without being disturbed through external atmosphere. But you won't notice it that fast if you're a personality which feels reluctant about honesty with your core.
When I was more naive, I didn't detected how the high acts, but felt that I should be careful with this relatively weak acting drug (the high feels very innocent, THAT IS the whole assassin!). The more naive you are of your inner perspective, the more pleasant the coke high will be.
I never experienced any negative sides of it, never a crave, nor my behaviour or ever an irritation. It has lost my interest gradually while I never did it often and much. I won't get euphoric anymore, the same goes for Xtc up to a certain degree. I don't even care about it. I have some great memories on both substances, very empathic with friends on coke, and very empathic with the whole audience on Xtc.
Good quality cocaine contracts the heart very rough.
Tried crack also 3 times but that was totally beyond snorting, it made me feel terribily weak and down for 2 days and that for just 10 minutes of great pleasure.
The high was, I must admit, goddamn fine. Flashing euphoria for no reason within my small head and not aware of my surroundings. I must admit I picked up a dangerous fascination for this within the first minutes after my first try out ever.
I realised what the fuck I had done, "You smoked crack" a voice said in my head. That sentence was the nastiest poo I had ever smelled somehow. I couldn't imaging myself anymore smoking a pipe. I didn't plan to do more either of what I had left. I wanted to analyse what happened in my brain after doing this stuff. (see picture at the bottom)
Smoking crack is just shooting coke without a needle. The biggest bullcrap ever. I didn't had to diminish the fascination after thinking it through. But it came instantly as black magic with my first high ever and it shocked me that such a 'drug fascination' could occur in me. I would have never expected it. It comes out of nothing. And it has powerful hooks to grab you for eternity so I felt.
I wouldn't blame people who have lost it all through basing coke, it's an outstanding drug in turning people into broken bricks. :evil:
If you legalise coke, you'll inherently legalise crack and basecoke as well. Everyone can learn cooking it.
