IJesusChrist
Holofractale de l'hypervérité
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- 22/7/08
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I feel like I havn't had real deep thought in a long time. Wisdom, learning.
I havn't had that yearning and learning feeling. The one you get as you just cracked open a whole realm of ideas. Like going to the science class you usually didn't care about, or psychology and they talk about exactly what you want. Then you're full of thought for hours, days after. Like you constructed a peice of brain.
The real reason is I'm not in school, it's summer, I'm on the computer all the fucking time, and I havn't touched a text book except some organic chemistry reviewing.
BUT, alas, I would like to try LSD. My initial presets were I wasn't going to do anymore psychadelics for some time, as in years. My anxiety is still there, however I can combat it and control it with relative ease. Talking blindly is the key, soon it disappears, and I talk with 20/20 vision shortly there after.
Part of my anxiety, paranoia, however is telling me I am becoming stupider, losing brain mass. All this naptha, toluene and other solvents are probably taking a toll, but in reality probably nothing noticeable. (I'm not sniffing, I'm just always painting graff or dealing with naptha ((finally done!!)))
So I'd like to ask: With my anxiety, do you think I should wait till I'm completely stable, re-enter the school atmosphere and seek it later, or do you think a new experience on LSD on a sunny summer day at the beach is in order?
I havn't had that yearning and learning feeling. The one you get as you just cracked open a whole realm of ideas. Like going to the science class you usually didn't care about, or psychology and they talk about exactly what you want. Then you're full of thought for hours, days after. Like you constructed a peice of brain.
The real reason is I'm not in school, it's summer, I'm on the computer all the fucking time, and I havn't touched a text book except some organic chemistry reviewing.
BUT, alas, I would like to try LSD. My initial presets were I wasn't going to do anymore psychadelics for some time, as in years. My anxiety is still there, however I can combat it and control it with relative ease. Talking blindly is the key, soon it disappears, and I talk with 20/20 vision shortly there after.
Part of my anxiety, paranoia, however is telling me I am becoming stupider, losing brain mass. All this naptha, toluene and other solvents are probably taking a toll, but in reality probably nothing noticeable. (I'm not sniffing, I'm just always painting graff or dealing with naptha ((finally done!!)))
So I'd like to ask: With my anxiety, do you think I should wait till I'm completely stable, re-enter the school atmosphere and seek it later, or do you think a new experience on LSD on a sunny summer day at the beach is in order?
