Shroomination
Neurotransmetteur
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- 13/5/10
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*reposted reply from "how often is too often"
this is very imprtant to me that everyone read this about the over-use of psyhoactives. i am currently making them a part of my life work and i want people to use these tools for exploring rather than abusing. this is my experience.
how much is too much? coming from someone who did shrooms close to 200 times in a year, when your in that place, that many times, so close together, the experience can have extremely detrimental effects on your psyche. i was too into the exploration and not too into the integration and to be quite frank, it f@#$ed up my sense of self and my motivations. i still find after 6 years, mentally recovering from the damage i wreaked on myself has been a long road. when i first started doing them i was 17 and didnt let myself do it more than once every couple months, i thought this was safe because i had no idea where these magic little things were taking me and i didnt want to get hurt.
that quickly went away when i had my first enlightening experience.
after that i started a weekly regiment which turned into a every 2-3 day experiment. i was waiting only long enough for my tolerance to go down so i could have a descent trip the next time, without having to consume a quarter ounce. then i bought an ounce to sell, im just going to say, i didnt sell them. i spent close to 2 weeks, on shrooms, everyday, all day. things in my life went downhill really quick at that point. i was kicked out of school because basically i didnt give a f#@k about anything anymore. i didnt see the point to the social constructs of life anymore and with alot of other really crazy stuff going on in my life i became extremely suicidal. now, im not saying shrooms made me that way, so who ever reads this DO NOT even try to interpret it that way. my problem was that i was very young and very ignorant. i found myself chasing something i was never going to find without the help of someone else being able to integrate my experiences, and with it being almost every day it just made things even less significant. the trip became a way of escape, from life, from my family, from my sadness really. the first time i actually tried to kill myself was the last time i had done mushrooms.
no i didnt try to kill myself on mushrooms, but when i was tripping i was like "hell this aint so bad, im sure dieing is alot like this, if i died right now i wouldnt have a problem in the world!!"
a few days later, an unsuccessful attempt...
and that was it for like 4 or 5 years i didnt touch mushrooms once. i tried LSD a couple times but it was cut with alot of speed so it confirmed that i didnt really care for anything that wasnt natural, didnt comes from the earth, or synthesized. the last time i took shrooms was about a year ago, im working with a shaman who has helped me integrate my experiences, at least the ones i can remember, and now that this has happened my psychedelic experience past and present hold such a more powerful understanding.
i advocate the use of mind bending, altering, melting, enlightening, and lifting substances to see different aspects of yourself or of life in general, but if you have no way of integrating your experiences they are essentially useless. please be safe in your use, especially how often you use them. i learned very fast that, with the right circumstances, you can really damage you perception of life. i dont want something i believe to be a very effective psychoanalytical tool to be turned into a "horror-drug" because people are "loosing their minds". if you are willing to step beyond the bounds of our reality you must have the tools into which you can make these experiences useful in this realm.
otherwise, your just beating your brain with the dead horse!
this is very imprtant to me that everyone read this about the over-use of psyhoactives. i am currently making them a part of my life work and i want people to use these tools for exploring rather than abusing. this is my experience.
how much is too much? coming from someone who did shrooms close to 200 times in a year, when your in that place, that many times, so close together, the experience can have extremely detrimental effects on your psyche. i was too into the exploration and not too into the integration and to be quite frank, it f@#$ed up my sense of self and my motivations. i still find after 6 years, mentally recovering from the damage i wreaked on myself has been a long road. when i first started doing them i was 17 and didnt let myself do it more than once every couple months, i thought this was safe because i had no idea where these magic little things were taking me and i didnt want to get hurt.
that quickly went away when i had my first enlightening experience.
after that i started a weekly regiment which turned into a every 2-3 day experiment. i was waiting only long enough for my tolerance to go down so i could have a descent trip the next time, without having to consume a quarter ounce. then i bought an ounce to sell, im just going to say, i didnt sell them. i spent close to 2 weeks, on shrooms, everyday, all day. things in my life went downhill really quick at that point. i was kicked out of school because basically i didnt give a f#@k about anything anymore. i didnt see the point to the social constructs of life anymore and with alot of other really crazy stuff going on in my life i became extremely suicidal. now, im not saying shrooms made me that way, so who ever reads this DO NOT even try to interpret it that way. my problem was that i was very young and very ignorant. i found myself chasing something i was never going to find without the help of someone else being able to integrate my experiences, and with it being almost every day it just made things even less significant. the trip became a way of escape, from life, from my family, from my sadness really. the first time i actually tried to kill myself was the last time i had done mushrooms.
no i didnt try to kill myself on mushrooms, but when i was tripping i was like "hell this aint so bad, im sure dieing is alot like this, if i died right now i wouldnt have a problem in the world!!"
a few days later, an unsuccessful attempt...
and that was it for like 4 or 5 years i didnt touch mushrooms once. i tried LSD a couple times but it was cut with alot of speed so it confirmed that i didnt really care for anything that wasnt natural, didnt comes from the earth, or synthesized. the last time i took shrooms was about a year ago, im working with a shaman who has helped me integrate my experiences, at least the ones i can remember, and now that this has happened my psychedelic experience past and present hold such a more powerful understanding.
i advocate the use of mind bending, altering, melting, enlightening, and lifting substances to see different aspects of yourself or of life in general, but if you have no way of integrating your experiences they are essentially useless. please be safe in your use, especially how often you use them. i learned very fast that, with the right circumstances, you can really damage you perception of life. i dont want something i believe to be a very effective psychoanalytical tool to be turned into a "horror-drug" because people are "loosing their minds". if you are willing to step beyond the bounds of our reality you must have the tools into which you can make these experiences useful in this realm.
otherwise, your just beating your brain with the dead horse!
