Just figured out my true purpose in life...

[zepp_head]

I was raised in a Christian home, so of course I was taught to believe that pot is bad for your health, and that I should act like I've done something morally wrong by smoking it. Although I'm starting to feel a bit better about my self. I would consider myself a recreational smoker, but I think it also helps a little with my ADHD, OCD, and Tourette's Syndrome.
Anyways, I've just realised what's 'really' going on. It hurts me so much to realise that my fundamental human rights have been denied in the eyes of the law as well as society. I already have mental health problems that are over my head (I'm currently suffering from scizophrenia), and in my head the only people I can see being able to help is my family, but I know that if I were to talk to them about my problems, I'd have to deal with the pain of them not actually CARING because I'm a "pothead" or "doper" or "drug - dealer" or whatever label they may choose to fix.
I feel kind of fucking depressed and angry with myself because I know I'm better than this, but I feel as though my life as I currently knew it is completely erased, like the path that I was supposed to follow just isn't there.
I don't know how to live with my mental problems and depressed feelings, which compound onto themselves when I think about the possibility of not having success in life and never truly finding happiness.
Is there anyone that can give me some advice on what I can do next?
I feel scared and anxious, it feels like my whole world is collapsing.
Peace.

 

[drizzit]

Just keep swiming! Life FUCKING sucks at points and I hate it but don't give up. And don't give up your past despite what has happened you are you and your past shaped that. A lot of people say smoking pot with scizophrenia is bad, fuck that iv lived half my life with two people with said disorder that are better off smoking the herb to calm down. We all are vary different and can get different results then others from different substances but if its something you enjoy and feel help from you should be able to help yourself without judgment. But just keep at it man all we can do is live and fight to keep living hold your beliefs and foundation while trying to seek your truth. I hope this helped I'm sorry if this is not the response you wanted but I'm happy to try an help and just want you to make life all you can out of it even with pot by your side, if people can drink themselves to death why not be able to do whatever you want to your body? Regardless keep your head up take shit with a grain of salt and embrace every jewel of life you get.

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http://www.psychonaut.com/trip-reports/44617-lsd-flexeril-thc.html

Read just my background on this page if you'd like but I decided to open up to the world a bit an allthough I got no responses I'm surviving and now living with my schizophrenic uncle and his paraplegic buddy and I'm happy as iv been in a long time I'm completely excepted there and helpout a lot and all we do is listen to music, read, write, draw and debate.

 

[zepp_head]

That actually sounds pretty kick-ass. And yeah I've been told that about pot and schizophrenia, and despite some mingling beliefs I feel may have sunk into my brain by people forcing me to believe certain things, I do truly believe that pot is good for me, or, that I personally benefit from it, or whatever.
And yeah, I think I'm doing alright man, thanks for taking the time to reply to my post. Peace.

 

[GreenPalien]

Hey!
I have been through almost the similar situation in my life. I believe, we all actually do, during some point in our lives. Well, when my girl left me for no reason and went away with someone else, I started hating this world. I almost went mad (believe me) but then I started realizing that I have to cope with this situation if I want to get back to life. No one can help others in such a situation rather you will have to help yourself out. When past is gone, its actually gone. Always try to look forward in life. I know you might be pondering that its easier said than done. But I am the one who has done it and I am sharing my personal experience with you so that I might be of some help to you.
Optimism is one thing which one should always keep in his/her life. I know it sometimes gets pretty hard to do so but keep trying and move on. You know life for me is quite cruel in the sense that it puts you in lots of exams. I hope that helps someway.

 

[ophiuchus]

yes, ones mindstate through it is crucial. it makes all the difference. there are only three mindstates which are in agreement in life. acceptance, happiness, enthusiasm. if one can be at least one of these at all times, then their lives will sail infinitely smoother.