Found fear.

[IJesusChrist]

I seem to get slight paranoia symptoms when I'm very tired - it's very unpleasent to say the least. But then I became fearful. It was seperate, but connected to the paranoia, as if it was from something from the past, but built upon my paranoia.

And then it hit me, and my entire body tingled, my hair stood up, as if my body said "Finally" and I understood.

I do not fear death. I fear fear, but most of all I fear dieing while miserable.

IT came to me, that while I have ever gone down those doldrum sink holes every once in a while, as some of us do, mine would begin to accelerate - worse and worse and worse over nothing. Last night... it clicked. The reason it was accelerating is that I was afraid that "this feeling" is it. That this is how I am going to be forever, this will never end. I will die like this.

I had never moved it from the subconscious to the conscious, but now I understand, and what a relief. Sleep forever.
:mrgreen:

 

[BrainEater]

you figured it out! nice one! i'm proud of you! i think for me it's same same but different... fearing fear is so damn painful and senseless. i agree on the fear of dying miserable and the consequences it brings. it's like a trap for your conscious mind, i think. maybe you set it up yourself? who knows.

 

[IJesusChrist]

I think we do, I think we are set from birth to fear something. Fear of death? But when our consciousness transcends that, we still fear something, but it may be faceless.

 

[BrainEater]

then you won't have transcended that fear completely. well, i mean there's like a natural fear of death and a indoctrinated fear of death. so can you accept fearing yourself? and you want that? ok maybe you have your own reasons tho, so who am i to judge you? just one out of millions of braineaters...

 

[IJesusChrist]

You missed my point, I wasn't talking about myself... you always think I'm speaking about myself!

 

[BrainEater]

sorry then mate. sometimes my interpretation is wrong, too, you know? but you are right, we are set to fear. it's not acceptable if we don't fear, or so it seems... so we project our fears on others or on things. instead that we'd be REALLY confronting the fears. that's how they think they can make us their slaves. ahahhahahaha fkn dumbasses. they can all suck my dick. :lol:

 

[IJesusChrist]

Yes, exactly, that was my point, you said it better.

We may fear death, but even if we transcend that, we may project a meaningless fear on something else. I think we must fear something without utopian enlightenment, fear is transcribed in us, around us. All the sheep we talk to every day and attempt to enlighten fear something. Its contagious.

If you have an empty fear, I think it may be hardest to deal with, because you fear nothing. But you fear everything.

:wink:

 

[MindAsh]

Remember that Fear is the mind killer and when one surrenders to acceptance of that which they cannot change in life then one finds true freedom