commandercosmos
Matrice Périnatale
- Inscrit
- 16/12/12
- Messages
- 4
Usual first timer story really.. suffered with depression since my teen years. IT caused me to hold back in other areas of my life so lack fufillment.
my first experience with the spiritual world came from smoking cannabis and piecing together the subliminal messaging that comes through the brainwashing media. I know for a fact that socery is in affect, where a distortion of the true human idenity is practised. for over a year I have remained in a pretty dull place since a serious psychosis episode. slowly I am coming round again but lack inner peace and comfort of mind to pursue my dreams. dark and sinister spirits reguarly taunt me. However I have developed a qigong exercise that strenghtens my soul and creates resistence towards them.
"Is there people on earth working against the cause of humanity?" for the past year this question has troubled me to the point that I have completly withdrawn from society. "Are there devil worshipping elitists namely the illuminati or New world order?" again a regualar question for which I can only answer yes provided overwhelming evidence. lady gaga music videos etc, lack of truth seeking among common people, the joke that is Jesus and religion, man's constant battle with himself. poor leadership qualities in political elite, terrible attempts in education system to equip students with mental tools/stronger attitude etc. The whole system is a result of millenium old spiritual censoring/terrorism.
I know my brain wave activity is less than healthy or what its true potential maybe. Not to mention my own parents threaten to disown me if I attempt to cease taking medications (zyprexa). status quo fucks that they are I still love them but my personality fails me and any attempt to develop a stronger relationship with them.
Enter ayahausca: I gotta be honast but I'm getting tears in my eyes reading over some of your stories and experiences, I sense your joy and I want it.
Sooooo... I ordered a brew kit, my hopes are to trip before christmas so I can be more forth coming with my family and be more festive rather than typical moody/world is about to end me. at heart I am a joker and like to make people comfortable and laugh with me. but as I mentioned earlier dark forces are at work within our world.
I'll keep you posted with how it goes... perhaps you may have some tips for a first time tripper?!?
my first experience with the spiritual world came from smoking cannabis and piecing together the subliminal messaging that comes through the brainwashing media. I know for a fact that socery is in affect, where a distortion of the true human idenity is practised. for over a year I have remained in a pretty dull place since a serious psychosis episode. slowly I am coming round again but lack inner peace and comfort of mind to pursue my dreams. dark and sinister spirits reguarly taunt me. However I have developed a qigong exercise that strenghtens my soul and creates resistence towards them.
"Is there people on earth working against the cause of humanity?" for the past year this question has troubled me to the point that I have completly withdrawn from society. "Are there devil worshipping elitists namely the illuminati or New world order?" again a regualar question for which I can only answer yes provided overwhelming evidence. lady gaga music videos etc, lack of truth seeking among common people, the joke that is Jesus and religion, man's constant battle with himself. poor leadership qualities in political elite, terrible attempts in education system to equip students with mental tools/stronger attitude etc. The whole system is a result of millenium old spiritual censoring/terrorism.
I know my brain wave activity is less than healthy or what its true potential maybe. Not to mention my own parents threaten to disown me if I attempt to cease taking medications (zyprexa). status quo fucks that they are I still love them but my personality fails me and any attempt to develop a stronger relationship with them.
Enter ayahausca: I gotta be honast but I'm getting tears in my eyes reading over some of your stories and experiences, I sense your joy and I want it.
Sooooo... I ordered a brew kit, my hopes are to trip before christmas so I can be more forth coming with my family and be more festive rather than typical moody/world is about to end me. at heart I am a joker and like to make people comfortable and laugh with me. but as I mentioned earlier dark forces are at work within our world.
I'll keep you posted with how it goes... perhaps you may have some tips for a first time tripper?!?
