The Glow 2.0
It has been a while since I had this trip. It took me some time to process, as a lot happened during the trip that was simply too overwhelming to put into words. I did not feel the need to share my experience until now. I needed some time and effort to reconstruct what I have encountered and to put it all in the proper perspective. Though the high has subsided considerably since then, I still feel the glow and I know it will always stay with me.
It all started on a Saturday morning: I took two hits of acid and lied down in bed, covering eyes and ears to prevent sensual stimulation as much as possible. Up until this moment I never felt nervous, as my experience was planned ahead and prepared well psychologically. I was ready to face my deepest fear, my most horrible face, but what I encountered was far more intense. I had some shivers and felt a bit uncomfortable, had some last minute doubts about what was going on. I started to feel those shivers, and noticed that the effect was very nice; it relaxes the body in a way unsurpassable by massage or conscious attention. So I shivered. And shivered and shook my whole body. At one point I just let go and relaxed. I wasn’t uncomfortable any more and the trip could begin.
I usually have somewhere in between very visual and regular trips. This time it was different. No visuals whatsoever. In retrospect the acid might have been of bad quality because it was pretty old and not kept cool. The only thing that I saw for the first two hours was a bright light, somewhere in the centre of my head. It would be my ‘third eye’ if you were to put a name on it, but instead of seeing, this eye was emanating light, brighter than the sun. This light came over me. It filled me with joy and love, peace and acceptance. I noticed that my whole life I have been looking for something and now I knew what I had been looking for. It was this eternal moment of bliss.
This light was God. It was everything, encompassing every little piece of matter and every organism. It was everywhere. This light didn’t ‘know’ everything, it embraced everything, it was everything and loved everything. This light loved everything equally. It loved humans, animals, bad habits, faith, peace, war, loss and pain. The love was superfluous. I felt the light burning in my head and in my heart at the same time. It was always there, I just didn’t notice it before. I understood suffering the way Buddha saw it. Suffering became the most beautiful thing there was, and at the same time, I could feel the horror and pain. Love the suffering and the horror removes itself, because horror is just one-sided love.
After a couple of hours of bliss, I felt I had learned my lesson, I felt I was able to let go of the searching and start creating instead, spreading the love instead of searching for it. I decided to talk to my girlfriend in the other room, who was reading at the time. I noticed how she felt (dismal), and proposed to take a walk and a talk in the park.
At the park, there were people playing with some hockey-sticks and a ball, hitting it through the legs of a giant bear-statue. It was some kind of new ritual. I laughed my ass off. We had a good talk and I understood her very well. I noticed how filthy the smell of traffic was (we had to cross a very busy street to get to the park). This was very nasty and it didn’t go away.
The acid was still going strong, but due to my activities it was more in the background. When we got back to our place it was back again. This time there were some slight visuals. I went to bed again, and had some terrific insights again, though I cannot remember which came before the walk and which after. I noticed that everything came to me from outside of my ego, which gave me the confidence to let it go for the time being.
My girlfriend was planning on going to some friends and as I felt amazing, I decided to tag along. The acid wasn’t that strong and I felt like I had learned my lesson, so it was a great opportunity to put it into practice. I took a long shower in the dark, playing with energy as I was doing some Qi Gong exercises. This was too easy, so I gave it up. After the shower it was getting dark and we were ready to go.
We had to bike for about an hour to get to the place, and on the way we went to the supermarket. This was hell. It was so busy and everybody was rushing around, I was very uncomfortable. Luckily, I could accept it and didn’t go crazy. Once we were outside we started biking again. It was pretty cold outside, but I couldn’t feel the cold as negative. It was very nice and chilly and I loved the way it touched my body. There were Christmas decorations everywhere and the lights were very intense. We arrived and went inside, to find a small group of people, most of whom I know. We didn’t tell anybody I was on acid.
Her friends were organizing a games-night, where we were playing a game with werewolves and things like that. It was pretty intense and psychological as you had to play a role and cover up your true intentions. There was no rational basis possible for most of the decisions in the game and everybody had to trust their feelings. I could sense most people and saw through the games they played a lot more than usual. This was fairly interesting, as I could play the game a lot better than I would have normally. However, I was not really interested in the outcome, but more so on the way people played. Some people tried to be rational, but they were all very bad at making decisions and were easily fooled. Others were too emotional, letting them be fooled by good acting. It was humanity in a nutshell.
We played and played and at around 1 or 2 after midnight we decided to go home. I wasn’t tired at all and couldn’t sleep until 6 a.m. But it was pretty nice.
The afterglow was amazing. It was a very enlightening experience, showing me how to deal with life in a constructive way. The focus and clearness of the experience is something that I will always remember. I was kind of amazed that I did not encounter any trauma that I was normally too scared to look at. I do, however, think that I encountered my own unwillingness to believe that I was part of this light. This was kind of disappointing, as I did not expect to find something there. I have work to do, love to spread, ego’s to dismantle, light to glow.
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Haven't don't shrooms in about 8-12months waiting till I know im mentally ready 
nice report!
