Damn.

[IJesusChrist]

I just basically tripped for the second time, however it was my 5th time consuming.
It was the best most thought clearing acceleration of my mind, exactly what I needed. The bad part of the trip I realized there are some family issues that need to be dealt with, and that I'm going to be quitting mushrooms, atleast until I graduate college, or get my masters...
The good part of the trip I realized I am very fucking content. It's been a long time since I tripped and I didn't know where this was going to go.

I feel like talking so, I'm going to blab, I would not feel any different if no one read it.

I was with some of my friends I grew up with, since the second grade and I realized 2 out of the 3 have changed so much (I moved away to college) I don't even feel a friendly connection to them anymore... I wasn't sad, its been a long time coming that a realized that. The third friend, a very odd guy, who is... he just is. He would go well with this site, he;s a psychonaut however i disagree with almost everything he says, ever.
The trip was basically me saying "God damn I wish I was sober" except it was such a good feeling - I realized I loved being sober so much more than under the influence. There are parts to the shroom trip that are interesting, but most of it for me is just so jumbled, and hints of lingering depression are still there, but I was able to control it.

I thought of the girl in my life, who I really, really want to be with, I thought of my college, and I realized I am doing very good, and am so excited to learn. Learning is so fucking good for my brain. (that was another thing, I wanted to explain some things to my friends, but since they were so... uneducated I couldn't get it through) I realized I would be getting in to my 20's soon, the most productive and anticipated part of my life. I never thought I was going to make it past 19... I still have a few months to go however.
Finally I realized my family, I really have to communicate with them better.

Thanks guys I wont be posting here much anymore, except maybe uploading some art.
Peace and be safe :wink:

 

[user_1919]

I know how you feel. Mushrooms tend to make me think long and hard about my life, family and friends. I think it is good. I don't think there is any reason to quit using mushrooms. It's not like you use them everyday and it is causing problems. One or twice a year, to clear the mind out and think a little bit. I use them for healing and knowledge, and thats exactly what they give me. Hope all is well,

peace & love