tryptonaut
Holofractale de l'hypervérité
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I had just written a lengthy post about my experience last weekend that made me feel good about myself again after a phase of depression (a phase of about four months without any shroom trips). When I hit "send" the system asked me to log in again and lost the entire thing...
Well, maybe it saved you all from reading a post that was just much too long, so I'm gonna shorten it down to its essence: I absolutely love shrooms, they are one of the best things that happened to me in my life, they are able to give me back my motivation and self-esteem in times of depression.
Last weekend I was on the verge of losing it, having been depressed for a while, unhappy with my workplace where I have to work way too much to deliver unsatisfactory results while being underpaid...
I knew I had to do a trip or I would be losing it. I did 4.5g (didn't dare more in my fragile state of mind) and it turned out great. I found my self-esteem again, I saw why I was special and why people (and especially I myself) must believe in me and my ideas.
It is now 5 days later and I am still calm inside (which I absolutely wasn't 6 days or one month ago). I can still see things from a higher perspective, I have stood up to people in the last 4 days - something I am usually really afraid of - with positive results! I was being told by a colleague that she admired my unusually disarming yet powerful reaction to a confrontation with two superiors and another colleague (they weren't right yet they were trying their ways of invoking fear in me by becoming aggressive). My superiors actually apologized to me later on.
Well, my point is: a good shroom trip has once again saved me from going insane with stuff that is just a step to another level. It is only a test, and I will make it to the next level where I will be able to deliver better results with better acceptance and better payment.
(Note: Not that I am a consumerist, but right now I am actually being paid slightly above official poverty levels for a 50+ hours week including weekends, night shifts, 24h stand-by and so on. And that is for skilled and creative work in the media business, not some un-skilled shit...)
This has become long again, I guess...but my point still is: shrooms are great, I unconditionally love and respect their powers to un-do my depression and give me back my power and self-esteem. I couldn't wish for a better instrument to get to know better myself, my friends, and my opponents. The higher plane of shrooms puts into perspective reality and also unconsciously strengthens my psyche and keeps me motivated. Amen!
Well, maybe it saved you all from reading a post that was just much too long, so I'm gonna shorten it down to its essence: I absolutely love shrooms, they are one of the best things that happened to me in my life, they are able to give me back my motivation and self-esteem in times of depression.
Last weekend I was on the verge of losing it, having been depressed for a while, unhappy with my workplace where I have to work way too much to deliver unsatisfactory results while being underpaid...
I knew I had to do a trip or I would be losing it. I did 4.5g (didn't dare more in my fragile state of mind) and it turned out great. I found my self-esteem again, I saw why I was special and why people (and especially I myself) must believe in me and my ideas.
It is now 5 days later and I am still calm inside (which I absolutely wasn't 6 days or one month ago). I can still see things from a higher perspective, I have stood up to people in the last 4 days - something I am usually really afraid of - with positive results! I was being told by a colleague that she admired my unusually disarming yet powerful reaction to a confrontation with two superiors and another colleague (they weren't right yet they were trying their ways of invoking fear in me by becoming aggressive). My superiors actually apologized to me later on.
Well, my point is: a good shroom trip has once again saved me from going insane with stuff that is just a step to another level. It is only a test, and I will make it to the next level where I will be able to deliver better results with better acceptance and better payment.
(Note: Not that I am a consumerist, but right now I am actually being paid slightly above official poverty levels for a 50+ hours week including weekends, night shifts, 24h stand-by and so on. And that is for skilled and creative work in the media business, not some un-skilled shit...)
This has become long again, I guess...but my point still is: shrooms are great, I unconditionally love and respect their powers to un-do my depression and give me back my power and self-esteem. I couldn't wish for a better instrument to get to know better myself, my friends, and my opponents. The higher plane of shrooms puts into perspective reality and also unconsciously strengthens my psyche and keeps me motivated. Amen!
